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Friday, March 28, 2003

if i were sleeping
i would dream you
if i could fly
i would fly straight into your arms
if i had time
i would spend it all with you
if i had money
i would pamper you with it
if i had a choice
i would choose you


~ { 3/28/2003 02:55:00 PM }
phexz lingers thoughts;

Monday, March 24, 2003

[[fridae]]


~ { 3/24/2003 05:46:00 PM }
phexz lingers thoughts;


~ { 3/24/2003 05:43:00 PM }
phexz lingers thoughts;

there's so much going on at this point of time
so much to think about
school, my ongoing relationship, friends, work, dieting and the list goes on
this part and parcel of life is like too much for me to handle
or am i just being paranoid
making myself think of all the unnecessities
no one knows what's exactly going on in this so called "free" mind
what they see is a mask
a mask that blocks all the troubles i have going on in me
it's so thick that i doubt anyone can see thru' it
it's always there that i myself can recognise myself anymore
nobody knows
the hell that's burning in my mind
but who can i tell?
what can i gain from voicing out what's in me?
freedom?
happiness?
all i ask for is a simple beautiful life
who doesn't want that?
but i guess that's too much to ask for

~ { 3/24/2003 05:36:00 PM }
phexz lingers thoughts;


~ { 3/24/2003 05:21:00 PM }
phexz lingers thoughts;



~ { 3/24/2003 04:46:00 PM }
phexz lingers thoughts;

everything's kept within me
who can i trust?
who can i relay what's in me and actually understand me?
you ...
you're the only one who can tell me my next step
but how?
i ain't no courageous knight
ain't no daredevil
the words just seem to disappear when you're around
the real me hides away upon your arrival
i can't fight this feeling anymore
but i just can't find even a bit of courage to tell you
the pain in me
the anguish in me
the love that can't be reciprocated
it all weakens me each and everyday


~ { 3/24/2003 04:33:00 PM }
phexz lingers thoughts;

a mess, a big confusion, a hair-pulling situation is the status of what's in my mind
why did i have to cause such unnecessary misery and trouble
but was is it really my fault? was i really to blame?
can you blame yourself for liking someone?
there is no stop or go sign when it comes to the matters of the heart
when you feel for someone, it comes naturally and that was what happened
like ... how do you really define it?
it's ... so not love, so what is the harm of liking someone?
nothing happened.
it was just a silent, secret like
but now ... this like has become stronger
it's like i'm falling inlove all over again
but this time, this love can't be reciprocated
it just stabs me deep to know that i have to ignore my feelings for you
i have to make a choice a right choice
i have to be fair
to stay ... or walk away ..

~ { 3/24/2003 04:22:00 PM }
phexz lingers thoughts;