The Emancipation of Mimi.
Mariah Carey - Shake It Off.

I gotta shake you off
Cause the loving ain't the same
And you keep on playing games
Like you know I'm here to stay
I gotta shake you off
Just like the Calgon commercial
I really gotta get up outta here
And go somewhere
I gotta shake you off
Gotta make that move
Find somebody who
Appreciates all the love I give
Boy I gotta shake you off
Gotta do what's best for me
Baby and that means I gotta
Shake you off

By the time you get this message
It's gonna be too late
So don't bother paging me
Cause I'll be on my way
See I grabbed all my diamonds and clothes
Just ask your mama she knows
You're gonna miss me, baby
Hate to say I told you so
Well at first I didn't know
But now it's clear to me
You would cheat with all your freaks
And lie compulsively
So I packed up my Louis Vuitton
Jumped in your ride and took off
You'll never ever find a girl
Who loves you more than me

I gotta shake you off
Cause the loving ain't the same
And you keep on playing games
Like you know I'm here to stay
I gotta shake you off
Just like the Calgon commercial
I really gotta get up outta here
And go somewhere
I gotta shake you off
Gotta make that move
Find somebody who
Appreciates all the love I give
Boy I gotta shake you off
Gotta do what's best for me
Baby and that means I gotta
Shake you off

I found out about a gang
Of your dirty little deeds
With this one and that one
By the pool, on the beach, in the streets
Heard y'all was
Hold up, my phone's breakin' up
I'ma hang up and call the machine right back
I gotta get this off of my mind
You wasn't worth my time
So, I'm leaving you behind
Cause I need a real love in my life
Save this recording because
I'm never coming back home
Baby, I'm gone
Don't cha know

a good friend geokie told me this...

"Now faith is the substance of things hoped for,
the evidence of things not seen. By faith we
understand that the worlds were framed by
word of God, so the things whic are seen were
not made of things which are visible...."

Heb 11:1-3


hwee... i'm sharing this with you too...
cos i feel this paragraph means alot.
thanks you loads geokie.
means so much to me.....

oohh man!
waking up to a saturday.......
was......
hmm.. my head was heavy and my stomach
didn't feel good. probably had a lil too much
last night. haha!!

had some nice chinese zhi cha near arab street
for dinner. the beef was nice!
tasted like the geylang beef horfun's beef!
but the beancurd hotplate could be better.
the beancurd was the wrong beancurd!!!
but on whole - everything was good la!
haha!!
esp the longan drink!
it's those chinese dessert kinda longan
drink. haha! very nice.
next time must go to the chinese herbal
dessert stall near bugis village. love the
winter melon something something there.
hahaha! very cooling for the body also.
hahaha! feels good!

later went down to highwood for some wine.
had the rosemount estate - merlot.
nice and smooth and fruity! haha
and cheap!!!!
lotsa pple yesterday - more of the corporate
crowd - but of course - i didn't feel out cos
i was in corporate wear too!! hahaha!
but i realise that the interior wasn't really
done up to the best. probably the people
incharge wasn't too particular about making
the atmosphere a cozy one. cos when u sit
inside instead of out... the feeling's different.
esp when i was on the way up to see the
upper floor..... the stairs were also not done.
probably some rich people who just wanna
do the business - but ok la -
their USP : CHEAP wine. hahaha!!!!
so people will come la.
just imagine 2 pple finishing up a bottle -
with slow music... hmm... abit hard ah. haha!
the last time i finished a bottle of wine with 2
was with sonia - but ok la... we had loud music and
stuff - was @ indochine. hahah!!
and we were a bit high after. haha!!

later on after the wine - headed down to
play games @ mindcafe. and there..........
we had MORE HOEGAARDEN!!!!
shessh!! like as if wine was not enuf ah!!
hahahaha!
5 bottles for $35! cheap cheap!
so drink drink!
was hard to finish la - cos i was getting high
and some people need to drive. hahaha!
anywayz, i think cheez geek is a GOOD game!
hahaha!! even after the few we tried.. we still
went back to the cheez geek! wahahah!!
and yest... i was the winner!!!! hahaha!

early in the morning...........

anywayz.... let's hope today will be a good day.
didn't really have a good start to my morning......
went down to collect my contact lenses and events
happened....

1. start pouring heavily when i wanted to go home
2. i realise i didn't bring my HP along
3. i didn't have coins
4. it's SUPER DARN HARD to find a phone booth!!!!
(cos all the foreign workers are using them)
5. wet my birks

ANGRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahaha!!
but lucky for me.. the phone i used wasn't spoilt.
you know how some have bad wiring and u can't
hear the other party.....
yesh yesh... lucky me la. hahah!

oh well.. we'll see how the rest of the day continues....

ciaos!

if you can't accept someone for who he
is - does that mean you don't love him enough
or are you just stubborn??
are expectations and how you feel out of a r/s
important?

i'm really just a typical girl. ok, i dunno if i really am
that typical, but like any other girl - i too want
feel loved, i want to be surprised and i want to
be assured. and i don't know if i'm pressured by
all these cos that's what's surrounding me.
but yes - i want it too! i like the feeling of doing
things as a couple. i hate it when 2 people are just
so far apart - and then u feel like strangers.
now you know why i don't date army guys.
cos they are in NS and u see them like during
the weekend. hahaha!! but that aside -
i don't like younger guys... and i think young guys
have quite a childish mind set @ times.
just compare a r/s with an older guy and a younger
guy and u'll know what i mean. younger guys
are... friends friends and friends.....
while the older generation... haha! are a bit more
different eventhough friends are still in the picture.
i just dunno whats so different la.
probably the mindset la.

i think guys should just listen to class 95 at night.....
and get ADVICE.
i mean listen to what they say -
cos it's really true sometimes what they say about
how to win a girl's heart.
so guys..... that's CLASS 95 for u! hahaha!

oh well. gdnite!

1st Sept.
on MC.

today was a struggle to get through.
dunno why, but my fever worsened
when i thought it was going down.
probably because of the junk food and
the beers i had last night. haha!
was feeling unwell on the way home
already cos i vomitted all my food
out before leaving. shitty!!!
my xian yu chao fan!!!!
i could finally eat it again and i had to
vomit it out.... so SAD!!!
was feeling shivery till like 3+am man....
so hard to sleep.. cuddling myself with
so many pillows. heh.

anyway, went to the doc today...
yes FINALLY... heh.
i always contemplate on visiting the
doctor cos i hate eating medicine.
and the medicine's all like big la!
shessh! you know that big fever
medicine.. ya...
and the antibiotics.... yyyurkkkk!
just not my cuppa tea man!
i prefer the small white flu medicine.
hahahah!! BEST!!!

anyways, the r/s has been given another
chance. and hwee - u ask y?
haa. i'm sure u understand me well enough.
i'm not the F & G kinda girl.... haha.
so emotions are always attached.
since when have u seen me get over a guy
so easily ah!? haha! even the worst guy
ever. (you know who la huh.. LOL)
and yes, no matter how much i thought it
should end cos it may just hurt me more
in a long run - i just should give it another go.
you won't know unless you try -
and if it really doesn't work, then....
my friend list will always has a space for another.
LOL =)
how easy does that sound. haa!
if only things were as easy as it sounds.
then life wouldn't be so complicated.
but what's the fun of an easy life??
hee.

i was watching shooting stars on tuesday.
first time catching it on TV man.
the first 2 episodes i caught it on laptop.
a friend sent it to me.
anyway, i think slyvester looked quite cute in
that show. wahah!! just very ACT COOL.
taufik as usual i think looks YUCKS.
and there was this song sylvester composed.
VERY NICE!!! i mean i like the lyrics and stuff.
haha! anyway his chinese song also not bad la.
hahaha!! better than the tau-kwa.
don't ask me about him cos i'll give u biased
comments. haha! cos i don't like him!!!

anyway, i finally bought my bible! yeay!!
it's the precious moments NKJV small
hands edition. yeay!! i can bring and read it
outside alrdy! haha! cos it's small!! hee.
better not let my mum confiscate it this time.
haha!

alrightie.
i'm going to sleep soon.
or ya... some one will come nag at me.
goodnight peepz.
pray i'll be better tmr.
pray i not vomit on my coffee tmr.
pray i won't womit out my lunch.
OH! by the way - the doctor was asking if i was
bulimic!!!!!
what the *beeeeeeeep*!!!!
hahaha!!! i like eat alot la!
and he was complaining i was sooooooooo
thin. hahaha!! and he kept probing if i was dieting
and what not. wahah!!
am i THAT thin!!?
i think not right. haha!
maybe i shrank by just vomittin. haha!!

alright alright...
nitey nite..

mp3 spinning: Cascada - Bad Boy

perfect~~

it's the ego in men
that cause a downfall.
like what i said to hwee -
you gotta let it go,
if u wanna achieve IT.
some people just don't learn.
and they stay up there.
thinking they never fell.

30th Aug 05

work was.... quite alright today. hee.
just that the worse happened to me.
started vomitting after work and now
i'm running a temp.
then jason bought tea for me and sijia
and medicine for me... haa! sweet...
thanks yea!
then clarence gave me a lift home and
again - i was feeling nauseous on the way
home. felt damn bad in the car la.
shittified.
why did it have to come all in a row man.
can't the virus like wait a couple of days
when i feel better?? haa.

yea, anyway.. life has changed.
things changed.
time to move on if you get what i mean.
when 2 are not happy being together,
then they shouldn't. cos it's better to make
1 unhappy than 2 right.
maybe what i did was wrong, but that's that.
it was tough.. but i guess it's the 4 the best.

i talked to the Lord.
i asked Him for his strength.
for his guidance.
only He can make things good now.
only He can make things new.

29th August 2005

today's monday - another day of strategic marketing.
hee. had quite a good lesson today.
went down for proj after my appt - then headed
for class. didn't have time to lunch - only ate like
2 pieces of biscuits... SAD! haa!
couldn't go buy sushi during break cos we had to
discuss our project again.
after school - headed home.....
cos i think it's better to head home, rest and do my
projects la. before my heavy week ahead man!!!
WORK FROM TUES - FRI!!!!!
shessh! super shag! haha!
i just wanna get the whole of september done with man!
............and it hasn't even started. haha!!
thing is.... it seems like work's beginning to get mundane.
oh man!!! i need some excitement!! more involvement
and work and going out!!! hahah!!
instead of staring at the computer............. day in day out!
will die! hahaha!!

anyway, became a squatter @ jack's hall during the
weekend. haha! and in the morning... i chop chop
showered so i didn't see anyone along the way -
cos i bet they'd stare at me thinking.....
"how come i've never seen this girl ard b4??"
some more i was at the guys level. haha!!
lucky for me - i didn't bump to a single soul
along the way and in the toilet. ok...
that sounded creepy...
wahahah!!
anyway, his room is untidy!
hmm... more like little amt of things - but just
scattered all over. wanna clean also dunno where
to start man! shessh!
wanna help me "decorate" his room also hard.
hahaha!! it'll probably turn into junk in the next
couple of days. haha!! or probably turn into some....
Mun's Corner. wahahha!!!
but his room's located in a 'not-bad' area la. near
to the side gate. no need to walk so far out - then bump
into everyone else in the level kind. haha!
i just find that he's having too much fun in hall.
play cards, eat supper, go zouk like 3 consecutive weds.
shessh!! u sure you're in school?
dunno la - the guys in hall are like quite "havoc" la.
from what i see. havoc as in with the girls la.
at the looks of shoong hong and fu lin -
oh manz..........
scary. wahahha!
hwee - if ur bf so havoc? haha! many midnight activites??
haha!
ok nvm - i bet he's probably just stuck with u.
wahahha!!

.red eye.

anywayz.... caught red eye with hong, friend and jack.
hmmm..... not that good at all.
as usual - the trailer seems nice, but actually -
quite straight forward and dumb.
i think even THE MAID was better than red eye la!
cld even come up with a twist la! shessh.
red eye - no twist.
think wes craven should stick to horror flicks and not
try some action movie la. CMI!

.nightmare.

and talking about horror movies... i had a creepy dream!
or should i say nightmare! hahaha!
i dreamt that i could see spirits.
and i had to help all the spirits - i had to turn back time
and not make them commit suicide.
shesh!!!! something along that line la.
and the first girl was my sec sch friend and i cried and cried
just to stop her from jumping down.
so scary!!!!!!!!!
urghh!!!!
it was scary la!!!!!!!

anywayz, the new 2006 birks are out!!! oh man!!
super pretttty!!!!


























so nice right!!!!!!!!! urgh!!! pretty pretty!!
but they'll only be delivered next year!!!
so long still!!!!!!!
i wanna order!!!
hahaha!!
die die must get! hahaha!
but some one will just kill me lor...
hahah!!
anywayzzzz......
i saw this PRETTY pair of heels!!!
so nice!! it's yellow, green and red and the heels
are green!! @ POA. $49.
soooo pretty!! hahaha!
maybe get it when i get my pay? haha!
so many stuff i wanna buy man!
i wanna buy perfume also!
hahaha!
my perfume has like only.... 1/4 bottle left.
hahaha! think i spray too much la.
hahah!
but i dunno which brand i should get...

1. Escada Island Kiss
2. Bvlgari Omnia
3. Flower / Summer by Kenzo
4. or back to Secret Wish.....

hmmm.... how how how???
hahah!
anyway, i think i'm going to rest now.. haha!
and plan my week.. hee.
tataz!

i'm been feeling quite drained for the past week
and i couldn't have rest days on my weekends
cos i had intensive lessons for law and proj meeting.
oh man!!
anyway, i think retail therapy helps alot.
when u're stressed or angry - SHOP!!!!!
it's the best therapy ever!!!
it'll just get the load of ur mind man!
hahaha!

yea... been shopping for clothes...
and i'm happy!! hahah!
not many... but ya la.
i wanna buy shoes man!!!!!
but the shoes i saw today........ at POA...
sijia say.... NO!!

mun: gimme a reason why i shouldn't buy!
sijia: then why must you buy??

hahah! she's stopping me from buying
shoes man! hahah!
she the woman!
but anyways... i bought a pearl necklace and earrings...
haha!

okok - i'm going to go zzzzz.....
feel so blueeeee today cos i've ben doing some thinking.
blue blue blue....
gdnite!