it's not that i don't want to listen
and it's not that i don't care.
i know what i'm doing and the consequences,
i will face.
i don't need an outsider telling me what is
wrong and what is right.
i don't expect someone whom i don't think
is better in attitude, telling me what is wrong.
why don't you yourself try bucking up,
prove yourself wrong and then tell me what's
right and wrong.
i don't wanna care what you do now,
cos i've done what i've did -
and i don't think i deserve being treated the way you
treated me. before you say anything else,
think of the way you treated me. someone who bothered
to show care and concern as a friend.
someone who was there for you. someone who didn't
look down on you when many almost gave up.
you never did respond even as a friend and you
didn't seem like you bothered.
oh well - that was the past.
i've put it behind me and towards someone i love,
i'm quite soft hearted. what happened doesn't
really bother me that much anymore. i don't blame
anyone for what happened. i'm just disappointed at
the whole situation and the way you handled it.

i love my blog..
i love my butterfly..
i love the pink..

justin brought mika down tt day....
cutie cutie...















and mika again...















and both celeste and luke CUTTED their hair!!!
LOL. couldn't recognise Luke man!















and i met SONIA! she CUTTED her hair too!!!
damn!! think she has a WHOLE new self now.
haa!















and a new POSE! haa.















anywayzz, don't you think i look good with the background?
like sooo nicely blended in.....
wahahah!!!
ciao!

today's my OFF DAY!!!!
wooohooooo!!!
actually my off day's gonna end very soon.
VERY SAD!!!!!!
seriously - i'm sick and tired of working!!!!
i just wanna be a stuuuuudent!!!!!!
ENJOY MY LIFE!!!!!
like as if i don't have time to work next time like
that - LOL!!

working sucks - i don't have time for my projects,
for my project meetings, i can't always do my work
in the office, i hate it when i have to leave early from work
and am afraid tt pple don't understand,
i don't have time for myself,
i can't make time for driving,
i've got intensive seminars, projects, advance theory tests,
and my own personal life + work topping it all off,
i have to face political issues which are really
NOT NECESSARY, i have to .... ok never mind...

i can really go on - but it'll get ugly. wahaha!!
and the only incentive i get from sacrificing all that
IS - i get PAID and i get to WAKEBOARD for free.
anyhow... the FREE doesnt really matter that much to
me anymore - i don't mind paying to wakeboard - just
as long as i improve and get my money's worth. seriously!
i think that's what matters most.
despite the ugly facts that Jason told me - I have to agree
with him....
i joined because of the interest - but now......
*sigh*
urk urk urks me everytime i think about it.
and no - the person they think's poisoning me -
is not. cos actually, there shldn't be anything to worry if
there ain't much to bitch about.
such a small industry - such big issues.
or should i say, so called big issues.
why so much..... bitching? why so much enemosity?
why so much arrogance? why why why??
you do your business, i do mine, like tt la.
poach what? steal what? not happy about what!!?
aiyoooooooooooooo!!!!!!
WhATEVER MAN! hahaha!
must learn from joseph - don't bother la!! LOL.
these politics are inevitable. everywhere.
get used to it mun! la la laaaaaaa.....

anyway, i we had the biggest quarrell yesterday.
i walked out - away from him. think twice.
once i walked away he tried to get me back...
and the second time, i just turned and refused.
i admit - i was being rash. very hot tempered.
do things w/o thinking about the consequences.
and i take a damn long time to cool down.
unlike him.... he's hot tempered, but cools down
alot faster than me. and yes .... i have to agree that
he really put down his pride to talk to me and
to ask me this and that and get me to come back...
and it's not that i don't care that i actually do it.
personally, i don't know why i'm doing it either.
i do things which are opposite of what i want and
feel. sad enough to say. and i really hate it.
but lucky for me - at the end of the day, we were okay....
very thankful actually. very.
i'm sorry to the two friends that i've troubled last night
vincent and sonia. LOL. i really owe both of you one man!

anywayssss....
i gotta go back to... PROJECTS again...
WORK AGAIN TMR.......... BORING.
ciao!

MY FOUR THINGS


FOUR JOBS I'VE DONE IN MY LIFE
1. yoga centre receptionist
2. cafe supervisor
3. cartel slave
4. recep + marketing

FOUR MOVIES THAT I COULD WATCH OVER AND OVER AGAIN
1. memoirs of a geisha
2. i am sam
3. love actually
4. perhaps love

FOUR PLACES I'VE LIVED
1. serangoon
2. sembawang
3. did i mention sembawang??
4. i wanna hurry move to the east!

FOUR TV SHOWS I LOVE TO WATCH
1. Desperate Housewives
2. CSI
3. Alot of shows on Nickelodean
4. Hongkong shows on 55

FOUR OF MY BEST FRIENDS
1.Sonia
2.HweeHwee
3.Erin
4.Sijia

FOUR WEBSITES I VISIT DAILY WHEN I'M ONLINE
1. bloggies
2. gmail - hotmail.. emails.
3. friendster... at times...
4. wakeboard.com.sg

FOUR PLACES I WOULD RATHER BE NOW
1. Aussie
2. Out wakeboarding
3. Snuggling at home under my quilt
4. Not in Spore.

FOUR SHOPS THAT I WOULD VISIT WHILE SHOPPING
1. BEBE
2. TOPSHOP
3. Far east??
4. GUESS

FOUR DIFFERENT FOOD I LOVE
1. Sushi + Salmon Sashimi
2. Butter / Sambal / Oatmeal Prawns
3. MOS Croquette Pie
4. CRABBBIESSS!!!

today is LABOUR DAY!!!!
and i'm working..
wher'e my public holiday!!!!! ar bish!

i can say i had quite a tiring weekend - especially with school!!
how boring can it be man! school on weekends!!!
BAHHHH!!!!!
went driving yesterday and i was sooo mang zhang when i
got into the car lor!!!! forgot to wear seat belt. change gear
almost stalled the car and whatever!!! hahaha!!!
and i did SLOPE again yesterday.... damn. i HAtEEEEEEE slope!!!
BUTTTTTTTT...... i'm determined to pass the slope man!!!!
i wanna pass the slope!! hahaha!!
i will!!!!

anyway, went to balcony after school with sonia.
edward joined after PQ's wedding dinner.
*sigh*
and again - we quarrelled. and i've learned - that i need
to speak up about the way i really feel. hai hai hai.
but even after he left - he came back to send me home.
dunno la.... our 1 hr conversation was damn funny + furiating.
wahahah!!!!
and after that abt 1 hr conversation - he came back to fetch me
home. i mean - yes, i do appreciate it and everything, but it
never come out of me.... and the sad part is, he has to always
compare himself to justin. WHY!!!!!
wth! wth! wth!
and i always have nothing to say when he does that. i don't
know why too... but whatever....
i would just say that you are two different people.
period. i have nothing else to say. *zip*

yesterday headed down to shop, eat dinner and drink with
zhen!!!! woohoooo!!!! so fulfilling!!!
ok - at first my shopping was BAD. i went everywhere... but there
was nothing to buy. FCUK, TOPSHOP, BEBE, PAZZION,
GUESS, ZARA, MNG, NOVO. you just name it! i was there man! hahaha.
and there was NOTHING for me to buy.
we gave up and headed for dinner @ 8 plus.
went to sakae sushi to have dinner and then... we decided to whack
FAR EAST!!!! hahaha!
cos we were so full!!!! so we headed down there b4 the shops
closed and did last minute shopping! and TADA!!! i bought 2 tops and
1 cardigan! wahaha!!
no shoes for me though. sad sad...
but nvm.... glad that i bought the few things i aimed for.
a tube, a long sleeve and a cardigan.

headed down to indochine for drinks after that.
think i know what shots to buy the next time i head down to
zouk. wahaha!! i wanna try the quickfuck man!
wahaha!! think the drinks used are quite nice.
wanted to try slippery nipple, but i don't like sambuca man!
YUCKKKSSS!!!!
i'm bored of sex and the beach cos it's getting very light.
hahaha!!! no kick! wahaha!
like as if i'm some A star drinker eh! haa!

ok la... i'm gonna go do some work first...
MP 250!!! ciao!