end of 19th.

yeayy! had dinner with my family today.
mummy's birthday today, so went to have
dinner @ causeway and a little shopping.
i baked brownies this afternoon... not cause
i have nothing to do, but it was her birthday
and she's been bugging me to go try a new
brownie recipe - so i agreed la.
well, it's not as hard as the previous one....
but the previous one was nicer to chew on
and was sweeter. this one's less sweet.
think i need to make it a little sweeter.
haha! well..... for those who're gonna see me
tomorrow's gonna be my guinea pigs to try
the brownie!!! hahaha!
and think it's the same few people, cos the other
time i brought it to school too - and tmr i'll
be going to school too.... so no diff.
hahaha!

anyway..... gonna catch a show tmr....
and i realise that the few shows i really wanna
watch... have very little time slots left!!!
cos they're a little old... haa!

1. Derailed
2. Family Stone
3. Broken Flowers

urgh!! irritating. so i'm left with a few choices......

1. Cheaper by the Dozen 2
2. the Long Weekend
3. In Her Shoes
4. Proof

don't know if i wanna catch PROOF... cos it's basically
about gwyneth paltrow being afraid she'll be like
her father. he had some..... disease? mental illness of
something.... yea... hmm....
1 and 2's basically a comedy, but i'd rather catch 1. haa!
and in her shoes........... hmm..
i dunno. no comments on that show yet.
heh. well, i gotta say the nicest show i've watch so far
in 2006's memoirs of a geisha. wahah!!
can't stop repeating myself. haa!!
well, i'll probably most likely catch Cheaper by the Dozen 2
then..... hee.

and movies i'm waiting to watch are......

1. Davinci Code
2. The Fog

yes yes yes!! i must catch these two!! hahah!
i'll probably see more trailers tmr and "wanna
watch" more.. haa!

sigh... i'm feeling a little drained from my day already
and i gotta head down to school early tmr.
*yawn*
well, think i better do my accounts and head to
sleep early.... feeling tired alrdy.
and i still have school on sunday.....
how exciting...........
ciao!

yesterday was the first time i heard and
danced to this song. and i was given the.....
"HUH..URH" look. haa!!
idiot guy.


Rupee - If i Can't Have You.
(it has quite a catchy tune to it!)

If i can't if i can't
Have you
Then baby i don't wanna be
With no-one else
If i can't if i can't
Have you
Then baby i would rather be
By myself

She is the meaning of beauty
Her spirit and her style consumes me
From the very first time i saw her
She captured me within her power

All it took was just one look look
Before i knew it i was hooked hooked
Put my loving to the test test
And now i must confess

All it took was just one look look
Before i knew it i was hooked hooked
Put my loving to the test test
And now i must confess

chorus

Woman i would die without you
Cause i love everything about you
Lady you are my very existence
And girl i say this with persistence
Cause i know

the mesmerising eyes.
the tingly feeling.
the sweet smiles.
the greatest hug.
the linger.
the glow.

i guess it has always been.

19th jan

happy birthday mummy!!!!

la la la~~~~
woke up like @ 1plus today la!
cos i slept like at 6am!!!!
*yawn yawn*
think yesterday was my longest clubbing
night ever in .......... a few months.
haa!!! i usually tired out like @ 2plus and
head back home or for supper then.....
but yesterday.....
i was still dancing away @ 4am!!!
my gdness!!!
and seriously, my toes suffered a whole lot.
think it's time to cut the toenail of my first
toe. *sigh* it's my nicest!
been keeping it since the last pedicure i did!!!
hahaha!!
(u guys must be grossed out about me talking
bt my toenail man! hee.)

anyways, headed down to momo with vincent
and his friends and later on josh came down
to look for me cos he was in phuture. haha!
stupid guy. thought he'd be @ momo, but
guess he decided to go squeeze squeeze.
but he said it wasn't as packed as usual.
he went in at 11 plus and there was no queue??
wooo.... seriously not usual. haa!
but alright la... i entered momo only about 1am
leh. haa! so... the clubbing duration isn't THAT
long afterall. all about the same time as coming
in at 10+11 and leaving at 2++.... haa!
yesterday, i drank to the minimum - which was
good!! haa! well, all i can say is that i'm still
scared of it. haa! but if you gimme a flavoured
martini, i'd drink it ANYTIME! haa!! still
my favourite drink man! *love love*

anyway, it was so nice of him to come down
yesterday. cos he didn't have any friends
down @ momo, yet he still made his way down.
haa! thought probably ben was around that's
why he came..... hahaha.
chatted up and danced till 4plus am despite
him having class tomorrow @ 10AM!!!!
he's really one of the "strongest" guys
i know man! he can like club till like 3-4 am
depsite having to work or go to school the next
day in the morning!!!!
how does he do that man!!!!! so much energy!!!
hahahah!!!
and after meeting him yesterday, it made me think
like....... is it good to have a b/f who's someone like
him....?? haa. i mean, yea, it seems tt he's very good
with tish, and of course i think they're really doing
good, but....... i dunno. haa! or maybe i just think of
this "perfect" boyfriend too much you know....
it seems like many "gentlemanly" guys.... are like playas
...... and many..... how do i call them...."str8 forward"
guys are less of a playa. wahahah!!!
ok... i pray he's not reading this....
or i'll die. hahaha!!!!
"you still think that way of me!!??"
wahahaha!!!!
oopss... no no.... i'm just thinking of some things la...
casually.... wahaha!!!
ya know... stuff that just pops off my mind. haha!

alrightie... i gotta go like eat my lunch and go bake
that brownie man!!
ciao!

18th jan.

tomorrow's my mummy's birthday!
wooo! think i'll just bring her out for
dinner somewhere.. haha!

i went out for lunch and i ended up buying
a shoe. urghhh.... i really need to learn to
STOP buying shoes man!!!
and yesterday, i bought a bag. okok,
at least for the bag, i've been looking for
it for quite some time now....
wahaha! yes yes... console myself........
i ALMOST bought a pair that is similar
to the one i have at home.... that....
HAS NOT BEEN WORN BEFORE!!!
shessh!!! but luckily.... i didn't.
*shakes head*
so instead of buying 2 pairs, i controlled
and bought ONE pair. hahaha!!!
bad enough man! shessh!
need to stop myself from spending too
much!!! i'm going on a holiday!!! i have
to save!!!
and speaking about holiday, it seems that
they're just taking their time to decide.
urgh! hello! chop chop or flight prices
will increase!!!!

i was thinking of taking SIA, but...
whao!!!! the tax's absorbitant!!!!
not sure if that includes tax in thailand
though.... if it includes then.......
ok la..... hahaha!
but oh well, maybe we'll pay 200+ to
sit SIA down to BKK. hahaha!
who cares... let's just enjoy this break.
haa!! and it's like..... after my exams!
wooo!! but school has actually started by the
time we wanna go.
think we'll go from friday - monday... cheaper!
too bad jackson can't go down
BKK with us, or i'll pay his trip down!!!
and that.... will be his BIRTHDAY PRESENT!
wahahah!! but oh well!
nevermind.

okok.. think i'll go look see @ my stupid
accounts project. it's just SO complicated.
urgh!

i just got off the phone......
hee. *smile smile*
he was telling me that a puppy siberian
husky is only going for 1.4k!! cheap
right!! and he's so tempted to get it...
hee...
yeay me!! wahhaha!
ya rightt....!

















i feel a strange feeling coming on to me.
and it feels like something i hadn't felt in
a long time. a tinge of happiness, a hidden
smile, like a first time.
so tell me, what is this feeling?
=) =) =)

la la la!!!!
i'm finally home EARLY! haha!
since last week,
i've always had late nights, coming home
at one plus.... *yawn*

and today, went to meet a FRIEND for dinner
and that FRIEND made me wait for quite longgg
ahhh... and while waiting, i took quite alot of
photos to that that person will regret making me
wait for so long!! haa!
so my story goes.......

and at first....
i was smiling... la la la...













and after awhile......













and later later on......
madness took over me....











and soon another emotion took over...












and then... i was too tired.












*yawn*
but it's ok..... i FORGIVE that person.
hahah! cos i know the reason for being late.
this one's excusable. hahaha!!
oh well, i had a good dinner anyway.
had my sweet and sour pork... FAVOURITE!
and claypot tofu + vege. hee.

okok... it's been a long day and i think i better
zzz soon. hee.
nitey niteee!

17th jan.

i woke up today feeling different. i started to
think about the future. how it's gonna be like...
what will i be doing... who will i be with and
will the people in my life now still be with me
when i'm like.... 25.

will i still love wakeboarding when i'm 25?
what will i be working as when i'm 25?
will i even be working when i'm 25?
will i still remain close with my best pals?
can i imagine myself down the road with
the people i'm with now?
will i Singapore or elsewhere?
or will i even be alive!?
shessh! pessimistic. haa! let's skip that.
should i not waste time on people i don't
see a future with now or just take my
own sweet time?
should i stop wasting time contemplating on
doing stuff and go do them instead!!?

hai. do i really have too much time on my
hands to think so much!!! hahaha!!
i feel i think too much.
BAHH!!!

but basically now, i'm trying to numb myself
to many many things.
or maybe i AM already numb.
i'm less bothered about things i used to care alot
about, people i used to care alot about.
and i find that life goes on alot better.
but due to my personality, i find it bad to
be less bothered, but i suppose it's for the
best. the more u bother or care about something/one
that who doesn't care as much as you do -
the worse you'll feel. and it's tiring.
so now, i should jz think for myself first.
LOL.

for now, i think i'd just better think about the
stuff i wanna get done or started with this year. =)
many many if actually sit down to think about it!

16th jan.

i'm a happy happy person today!
hee. cos i've managed to finish my
accounts tutorials!!!!
and that's really quite and achievement
for me cos i hate accounts.
i know nuts about accounts -
but today, after sijia taught me the basics
of it, i'm ready to do do do!
hahaha!
(i hope)
yeap! finally did my balance sheet man!
for the first time! and i could do it! hee
let's just poray it's correct! haa.
was feeling quite happy doing my balancing
and P/L account man. haa!
yeayyy!!

my stomach has been hurting for the past
few days, and today it just got worse.
urgh! sickening man.
think i needa rest before i head down to school.

anyway, to all those using an ibook.........
DO NOT READ THIS USING FIREFOX!!!
hahaha! stuuuupid firefox just cannot read
my blog properly. the best - would be windows...
LOL. but safari reads it too... hee.

think i better go rest before i head for school.
needa go down early for proj + paying of
next sem man.... *yawn*
ciao!

hweehwee....
you haven't lost a friend.
i know that despite not meeting
you so often, you'll still encourage
me and be there for me.
i appreciate all the times you've
msged me reminders to seek in the
Lord, and i thank the god for you.
i am, using all the strength i have left
to be strong yea and walk by faith.

and these are 3 are my top favourite
songs from jay chou.
i never get enough of november's chopin,
and i can't get enough of these 3 songs.
november's chopin will always be the
cd i love.
it gives me too much memories of someone
that's just too stubborn to admit certain
stuff ... someone who has so much of a split
personality ... someone who keeps everything
to himself ... someone whom till today
i still believe is nice deep down inside, despite the
fact that i should be hating him now.
it's just me i guess. too trusting should i
say? or probably just too soft as usual.

and i just realised,
my november's chopin did indeed start in
november.

tiring sunday....

okay okay. i ended going to church.
no matter how i contemplated when i
first got up. hee.
and i thank God i ended up in church.
i didn't even fall asleep during service today,
comparing to last week. haa!
well, maybe cos it's scorching hot outside
today and last week it was pouring heavily!
hee.

today's service was about giving.
giving your life to the Lord, the power of faith.
basically giving.
and it was good.
it made me think alot. about what i'm about
to go through, what i am currently going
through and afew more other stuff.
and after today, i know that i should cast
my current worry to the Lord and trust in
Him. have faith that He will do what is best for
me cause He loves me.
i know i should cast my worries to him,
give it to him, but i always can't seem to
fully do that. sigh.
today's service strengthened me. it sure did.
i've been quite a wreck for the past few days,
been a little depressed due to certain stuff,
did alot of thinking,
was sonia's shoulder and she was mine,
and going to church today empowered me,
strengthened me and gave me the added faith
i needed.
i know i get through this, look around and
appreciate what He has actually surrounded
me with. people who care for me, a friend
that's always there for me.

anyway, saw jamie and glenn again while
buying juice before church. haa.
pretty couple la. think they look so nice together.
haa!
after church, wanted to go to rice table for dinner,
but they were fully occupied. urghh!!
think they should do something about their space.
always so fast full man!!!
shessh!
i wanna go rice table to eat man!
i miss the indonesian food!!!! hahaha!
had wanton mee @ joo chiat instead.
then later on headed down to liquid kitchen @ siglap.
that place's bigger than the one @ thomson.
music's more chill, like.... smoother.
but doesn't have the cosy effect of thomson.
haa!!
and again... i drank alcohol.
after 1 1/2 beers, i felt tired... and sleepy.
quite tired infact.
seriously, i think i don't wanna drink so much
anymore. haa!
esp beers! haa!

don't think i'll be clubbing anytime soon also.
i'm tired of clubs and the clubs these days
just don't attract me to go down. haa!
1. momo - i don't like the crowd. just too
many Ma*ays.
2. MOS - just there to be seen kinda club.
quite boring in fact.
3. zouk - once in a while. probably the winebar
or velvet's enough man.
4. devils - HUH........
5. WHERE ELSE IS THERE TO GO!!!!???

i think i'd rather just go somewhere cool to chill
and drink man.
maybe drink a cocktail or something man!!
hahahaha!!!
i've had enough of the drink till high man.
i'm quite scared in fact, after my last puking session.
shesssh!!!
or maybe i should just stop drinking so much.
doing other stuff's alot better!
watch movies, watch dvds, wakeboarding,
chill w/o alcohol, shop, bowl, play pool, whatever
man!!! haa!

did a little shopping today @ topshop. urghh!!
i think i've just so much i wanna buy. haa!
today i bought a top from topshop and
2 undies!!! hee. i likeeeee........
and i still need to buy.....

1. a new pair of specs
2. 2 pairs of shoes
3. a pair of jeans from FEP
4. save for my trip
5. save for an ****

ok... probably those are my wants
not needs. hahaha!!!
but still!!!!!
hee .......

oh well well, think i should get to zzzzz
soon. cos i'm feeling tired man!
yawn yawn.......

satuuuuuuurday.

ok, it didn't turn out THAT bad in the end.
after my rest - i headed out for a BBQ.
had a couple of beers and that was it!!!!
i knew i was afraid of alcohol.
i knew i have a phobia of drinking.
YES!!!! i have a phobia!!!
the cans of beers were torturous man!!!
seriously!!!
and it was all no thanks to vomitting on
whisky that other night.
i've given up man... surrender.....
white flag........
cannot already......
scared. haa!












and after a few drinks i was like my photo...??
haa!!
i really hate this THING man!!
if you take it on your phone like that - no matter
if you rotate it on ur phone or in ur comp
and save it......
IT STILL COMES OUT UPSIDE DOWN THE
WAY YOU FIRST TAKE IT!!!!
$^%@^#(*@$(#(&@#&^@!!!!!!!

anyway, headed to watch memoirs of a geisha @
marina and i tell you, i was GOOD!!!!
u gotta catch that show man!
worth the $$ and it was 3 hours! haa!
it was probably my kinda show la.
i like shows like these, where you can relate to
what happens real life. educate you a lil too
you know...
and this show was great. was something like
this book i read, "chinese cinderella",
just that this geisha thing is based in japan
while chinese cinderella is in china.
but still, very nice.
4 out of 5 popcorns!!!!!!!!

i just realised today that some people can be
the biggest bas*ards and you don't really know
who they really are till...... it's too late....?
it's time i wake up and see the real world.
there's just too much i've not seen -
too many things i havent experienced.
the world is harsh and here i am, so
protected from everything else.
and when it hits me....... it hits me hard,
that when i fall, it's so hard to get up.
but you know that you just gotta stand up
and move on.
moooooooove on. cos time waits for no one.

i have my friends and i have my Lord by my side.
i just gotta have faith in Him.
He has shown me great things and He has helped
when i needed him. He never gave up on me no
matter how long i never went to church, and
He was there by my side for always.

and now, it's 450am.......!!!!!
sleeeeep time!!!!!!