bicycle stalker!!!!!!!

it's 330am and i've just showered and came
back from cycling about 1/2 and hr ago.
OMG!!!!
today was the worst experience of going
home from cycling.

me and sonia got STALKED by this guy from
1/2 of woodlands to 1/2 of sembawang.
where ever we went, he went. we went slow...
so did he. and the last straw...... we purposely
went into an industrial road...
and he followed. we immediately stopped and
we stopped like 40metres after.
ok, ya then.. at that point - we were panicking.
hahaha!! and i was about to call the sembawang
police man! SERIOUS! no joke! haa!
i didn't wanna continue cycling the last stretch
of sembawang, cos that stretch to my house has
NO VEHICLES AROUND!!!! yeap!
so we circled ard tt industrial area for awhile as there
was quite a bit of traffic there.

then......

we decided to head out towards the traffic light -
cos if he were to follow us - i would confront him la!
and that area has more traffic and light - so.....
"safer" in a sense la.
so... we went... AND.... he followed!!! shessh!
stopped right behind us after that.
then later on, i just turned back and asked him
what the heck he wanted la!
and he said he wanted to make friends.....
what the...... *beep* *beep* *beep*
so i asked him to get lost la.. haa!!
and... he cycled away... and about 100metres
away.... he stopped again.....
like DUH!!! we can see his blinking red light la!!!
shessh!!
scary la!! so me and sonia.. errmm.....
stayed at the traffic light ..... longer..... and longer.....
and waited for him to "go" away...
we turned and the light was gone...
but still scared tt he was cycling ard la...
but finally.. we cycled quickly back to the road outside
my hse.. hahaha!!!
leg pain man!!! UP SLOPE!!!!!
hahaha!
circled awhile more.. and then went up to my place.
shessh!!!! that guy's mad la!!! he just silently followed
us back la! if we didn't shake him off.. he would
have followed all the way to my hse la!
basket!!!

but really - it was scary la.
my house area has lotsa industrial areas, quiet lanes,
dim lanes and foreign workers la....
if i complain to my mum about it she'll probably
ban me from cycling at night la.
hahahah!!!

oh well - thank God i'm home safe and sonia's safe.
hmmmm.... really gotta think twice b4 cycling
at night again ah! hahaha!!
clarence still said that he wont be surprised if that
guy goes around cycling looking for us. hahaha!!
eeekk!! scary! hahaha!
sonia.. must becareful when you go home at night ok!
hahaha!

okok - time to sleep.
school tmr man!!! or should i say later.. haa!
*yawn yawn*

of all that would top my wish list,
the one thing that i would wish to have,
that i would even push away everything else,
you.
i would choose to be with you,
rather than have everything else.

hidden within.

sometimes i wonder if i should do what
my heart yearns.
should one really follow her heart?
i'd be lying to myself if i do the opposite
of how i feel,
but is that the way to survival?
that you can't always do things according to
how you feel..
that some things just need more thought
to it than it seems.
but how do you continue having this part
of you feeling... somewhat yearning and
pining for a certain someone.
and no matter what you do, you just relate
it back to whats in your heart.

and what do you do when this happens?
when all these feelings come back.
when this realisation occurs.
that he means just so much to you.
what do you tell yourself?
when you're in a state of confusion.
feeling all lost.
you don't know how you feel,
and you don't know how he feels.
and you don't know just what to do.

and you ask yourself,
how did it all come to today?
when you thought you've put it behind you,
it just comes back to haunt you.
and you start thinking.
is it all too late?
how does he feel?
how would things be?
and how is he?
and you just want to ask,
but a certain something holds you back.
p r i d e and the fear of rejection.

you take a step front,
yet you take a step back.
and like a mouse,
you scurry away from it all.
you don't have the nerve to face what's within.
the feelings,
that you've been hiding.
and you continue,
with the strong front you've created.

at the end of it all,
you're left with nothing,
but your feelings.
the miserable feeling.
and everything else that you use
to cover all you feel within.
and when you've come to this,
what do you do?




(i just wanna hold you..)

next show i wanna watch.....
APRIL SNOW!!!!

ok - it's a korean show.... i know...
but i still wanna watch it!!!!
think it's quite an interesting.
about some affair thingy. hee!!!
sooo my kinda show! haa!

mp3 spinning : David Tao - Liu Sha

R e d S h o e

ok.. this show - is SO similar to dark water!!!
shessh!!!

dark water: you throw the BAG away again and
again and it mysteriously comes back.

red shoe: you throw the SHOE away again and
again and it mysteriously comes back....

see the pattern. hahaha! what the...... *beep*
hahaha! well, the faces during the show and effects
are scary during the show la - but it didn't really give
me the creeeeps la. not as bad as the maid.
The Maid really freaked me out after watching
the show once man! and it still got to me after
watching it the second time.
hahaha! dunno why but i love watching horror flicks
though it scares the shit out of me la! hee...

anyway... red shoe gets........
2 popcorns!!

2/5

back back back!
think i've been doing some lavish spending these
days... hahaha!!!
shit!! when i'm supposed to be saving la!!

had boon tong kee for dinner @ timah area.
then went home to rest again.
dunno why but i feel so drained these days.
think i've been going out too much.
went out on weds and when i came back home
at ard.... 8plus.... i just fell asleep after showering...
*floooooppp*
yes... i even missed my 9pm show man!!
and i woke up @ 11+..... talked a bit.. and slept @ 12 plus..
hahahah!!
yea.. im super tired..

went to study today and i'm glad i finished my SM
report man! coool!! now.......
just gotta wait for next week to do presentation...
scared .......
i'm always scared when i have presentations..
hahaha!!
i get "stage" fright la....
scared when i see sooo many pple. haa!

urgh.. im so tired... but i think i gotta continue with
my other project....
i'm always soooo tired!!! why!!
i think i lack water la...
tts why. haa!
how to get thru the weekend man!
*grumbles*

okok...
i'm gonna cont what im doing.....
hopefully i don't head to my bed.......
*yawn*

photos for pam's bday's up!
check it out guys!

hwee.... you wouldn't wanna know what
watch i'm into right now.. haa!
im inlove with this metal strapped dior
watch - with pink! pink and silver!
haa! and it has blink blinks!
think silver & pink really attract me...
even the tag i like is pink and silver!!
hahaha!
will try and find the foto and put it up for
u just for seeing sake! haa!
see if u'll agree with me.. haa!

27th sept.

i'm dead beat!
went to highlight my hair today -
then went to class and left early.. hahaha!
how boring is econs man!

and MOMO is the choice! so those invited....
it's MOMO yes!!!
been asking mr joshie abt the price for bottles...
doing the maths abt getting the membership or
get him to get a table + guest list + discount for
bottles.... urgh!! and im still at my math. haa!!
this is hard! but afew more dollars for the
membership is not bad what right!
still got drinks when i go there right!!
haa! i think he's disuading me frm getting the
membership.. cos he say ex.. compared to last time.
was $299 last time. now $399.
shessh!!!
thats like 100 bucks increase man!
aiyaa.... i'm still quite a mess in which i should choose.
HELP!!!!!!
and again... i need someone to decide for me...
always the case... weigh this and weigh that...
and i STILL cannot come up with a conclusion...
hahah!
i think i already have 18 pple... OMG!
tts plus the bf's and gf's la! haa!
3/4's confirmed coming. haa!
so i better start making up my mind man!

ok.. whatever. im gonna sleep on it. and probably
make up my mind.... by... 1st october?? hahah! not too
late to go make all the reservations and processing
right???? hahaha!!
like i told sijia... i'm so afraid this and that will screw
up... that you feel u may not feel good...
some one make me feel good again.... haaa!!
anywayzzz.....
i LOVE my hair colour now...
seriously... my RED and sooo nice la!
hahaha!
but it's not alot of red la!
SO SAD!!
and im afraid the red will fade off man!
*prays it won't*
quite inevitable la! haa!

okok... gdnite pple...
time to zzz......
hwee! i'll show u my red + brown + orange hair
on thurs man!! haa!

i have black, diff shades of brown,
red and orange on my hair....
whaooooo.........

i'm super tired....!!!!!
woke up early today to go do my handover -
then after that - we had a great nice lunch!!
haha! which i couldn't finish la! haa!
had XLB, la mian and sweet and sour chicken.
haha!! sooo nice. hahaha!!
then went to school as usual. *yawn*
stress man the project... shessh!!!!
*bang wall*

anyway... think i soent alot of money today la!!
food + cosmetics + a top.... aiyooo!!
ya... money free ah! haha!
retail theraphy la! haa!
went to topshop after class to buy a top...
yeay!! blue!! hahaha!
also went to esprit.... and the promoter "drew" all over
my face when i was looking for a concealer la!!
HELLO!!!
i need to jian ren one leh!!!
i no need extra make up!!!
and i alrdy had foundation on! shessh!!
and she made my face look so thick. urk!!!

went for dinner down @ clarke quay later on...
and i walked the whole of clarke quay... oh my!!!
tiring can! hahah! but fun la! hee..
*memoirs*
anywayz.. i think i wont have dinner at baize china one
anymore.
the place just ain't suitable la. eventhough the interior's
very nice... and with leather seats and all!!!.....
but still.... hmmm.... it's more of a pub/lounge concept
la... so... hard to say leh. lights are dim - tables
were bit shorter... meant for chilling kind.
but it's a nice place to play pool and all la!
quite cool la tt place.
but think i'll go to either indonesian seafood restaurant -
or brewerks. both at clarke quay!!
hahaha!!!
so HWEE!!! tell me how to make reservations if u noe how
to ok!! haha!!

then after that... we can walk over to MOMO!!!!
wahahahha!!!!
so damn near la! haa! cos i've decided... im gg to momo.
i'm treating drinks... so... come come. haa!
getting membership la.. hahaha!!
so ANGEL!!! .... any connections on this?? hahaha!
see how it goes la huh...
wow... momo member! haa!
weird..

tell u what.. im gonna sleep now man.
im SUPER tired...
and i got an appointment to highlight my hair tmr
too... so gotta wake up. haa!!
fashion highlights!!! hahah!!
hweee!!! show you on thurs on our NUS date to the lib
yea!!! haha!! hopefully it wont end up like urs la!
hahaha!!! im thinking of red, blue or purple.
haahah!!
dun ant something tooo bright like ash la.
wld be kinda pai kia if i do fashion highlights. haa!
okok...
CIAO!

pain..

i hate to see a good g/f feeling what i felt last
week. and i thought they were all good.
but i don't understand how it came to this
point.
i really feel sad for her. just her telling me
how she feels and what she's going thru',
just reminded me of myself....
what i was going thru last week...
she's also in a mess...
and she's also thinking.
i don't get it. why always me huh??
always in the hamburger situation.
i feel like SHIT!!!
shit i tell u!!!
i should be smart like sonia.
always run away!!!
i wish things were not said.
and i pray that she'll be ok.
she's messed up.. and i feel really sad for
her too.
so what's the right thing for me to do?
oh Lord... i pray she'll be fine...
we wish we cld just eliminate the cause
of the whole problem...
yet... we want them there.
do guys need a rich g/f?
are guys really that fickle?
i really don't get this cycle.
hai.
does time apart from each other really
help work things out better?
i guess as much as they don't understand
us.. we don't understand them too....

i try to believe when you say things are
gonna be okay...
but it always turns out a different way.

i didn't go to church today.
rushing thru my SM project to send to
James. haa!
finally am done with it. hopefully it's
ok la... hopefully it's FULL enough.
hee.

anywayz, was just talking about what to
do on my birthday man. next week's jacq's,
next next is diana's... they all chalet chalet
kind. haa!! josh la.. ask him to help me get
discounts on bottles and free entry! haa!
last night was... fun! haa! anyway...
membership for momo's like $399.
and i'm willing to spend abt $300.
cos i think.. that's ard how much 2 bottles
will cost la..
but if i don't take membership... wasted right!
like another 99 more dollars i can get membership
leh!!!
kaoz!!! but i also dunno if i shld go momo or
gotham man. haa! wanna go thumper... but i think...
ALL the guys cannot enter!! whahaha!!!
OOOPSSS!!!
la la la... nvm.. still got less than
a mth to think about it.
hahah!

still needa go recce some places for dinner! haa!
and i think i've found my companion to go try food
with me! my lover!! haa!
see when la.... then go down and mam mam....
haa!
if it's nice.. then... errmm.. i forgot the place's name.
shit.
aiya, if it's nice.. then go there for my quiet dinner!
hehehe.

ok.. i'm finally gonna find food...
oh man! time check... 5pm!
LUNCH???
hahaha!
mun... always the same
haha!

ciao!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAM!!!!
it's pam's birthday today! 25th sept!
hee..

anywayz....
after what i "heard" today - i further think that
guys REALLY cannot be trusted.
i mean - its really quite sad to hear what i
heard. but it's life.
facts are facts.
but seriously la.... what sonia said's quite true
la. GUYS R JERKS! eh... seriously. wahaha!
i'm still quite saddened by what may happen....
but.... yea...
what can i do right...??
if it happens it happens....
boyfriends start drifting... start straying... when they find
someone new - someone better than you...
i really don't get that cycle.
so do you do that everytime you find someone.....
better? someone you THINK u have chemistry with?
*shakes head*
what the..... *BEEP*!!!!!!
guys..... are just guys.....
no matter how they say they don't BLABLABLA...
they still BLABLABLA....
crappy!