i'm tired.
i seriously am....
of all that is supposed to be said,
but isn't said.
i'm sorry, but i ain't any good at guessing,
and i don't want to be made to guess.
i'm not one who can just forget about everything in a snap,
and i'm not one who won't put her heart out in what she does.
if this is what i think it is,
i'd rather not be in it.
it's not that i'm sheltered
or haven't seen enough,
but i hate it when things r not at e same wavelength.
why can't u say something?
like how you seriously feel,
instead of just allowing me to reckon stuff.
i wouldn't wanna put u in priority,
if u can't do the same. period.
--- it's time i head to the gym again.

something went wrong with my internet connection
yesterday like at 5+am..... and now! hmmm....
and now it's hard to access msn. shessh!
it's raining cats and dog here....
major major heavy rain!! no wonder i could like
sleep till like 330pm! wowzzz!!!
i'm amazed at myself...hahah! maybe cos there's
no restrictions today...like i neednt wake up
for days of our lives or something...hahahah!!!
so there was no alarm to wake up to, so i slept...
like a baby! hehehe....
well well well, there seems to be a big problem
with my limewire! darn...... this means i can't
d/l songs!!! urgh!!! what's wrong with it!!!??
it can't connect - and the problems with the
my internet connection started with the limewire
popping up some alert - like some dunno what ...firewall
related message...*sigh*........

wanted to go out for awhile to buy something....
but looking at the weather......whao.....
the sky's all gloomy and it's raining so heavily...
hmmm..... i don't like walking in the rain...
the pavement's all wet and muddy...
wahahah!

hmmm...think i'll go workout for awhile....
see what i can do... hahaha!
____________________________________________

i'm happy happy happy!!
cos that christopher lee is
OUT of singapore idol!!!!
yeayyyy!!!! FINALLY!!

yeay! i had a great day! and finally, it's a friday
and i'm NOT at chinablack!!!! woohooooo!!!!
but that doesn't really mean that i'll be staying
home la huh.....oOooOppppsss!!

anywayz...at least i didn't waste my friday la huh...
went down to JB today... he went to fix his brakes they
didn't pass the inspections... heh. then he changed his
frontlights too.... to white! think it's quite nice leh...
hahah! cool! yea...and we saw this other car that was there
too. singapore car - a honda civic....civic right? if i didn't
recall wrongly... haha! yea...when it came i was looking at it
la...looks fierce ahhhh! dunno la, the overall outlook..
and the colour of the car was Nice!! ooohhh.... it's red ahhh!
yummmy red! hahahah! but the car owner not very good
looking.... haha! think he looked like some ah beng...and
dress sense cannot make it. only the car looked great.
LOL! ooooops! *zip* haha! whatever la huh...i shan't
comment so much.

anyway, ate dinner at city square. waaa!! it was quite
a spread for 2 people!!! seriously! we had...chicken...
and fish.... and vegetable....and beef!! whaooooo!
tts why! like...one plate..one plate...one plate...
think if it were to be me sonia eating.... there
would be quite alot left!! like yesterday night,
there were 3 pple for supper and we ordered
hokkien mee, oyster omelette, stingray
and clams.... WA! cannot finish! hahahah!
but ok la, he probably ate alot more than me that's
why the food finished. haha!
was supposed to catch a show... but he was tired.
yea..to think of it.... he had quite a long day...wooooo....
and on the way home...there was quite a jam!
shessh! seriously...can't go home tooooo late.
especially on fridays and sats... cos you'll be competing
space with all the other malaysian cars that wants
to enter singapore! cos it's free on weekends right!
shessh! terrrrrrible! and when we got out of the customs...
the car line going to malaysia..... was OUTRAGEOUSLY
LONG! serious! hahahah! i think if i were to be the driver
stuck in the jam... i'd probably seriously die... hahaha!
it was major bad! hahaha! goooodness! LOL!

well currently... i'm waiting for miss sonia to touch
down at home...so we can go out and eat. and yes...
it's 220am... ya... hopefully she's on the way home...
*yawn* she went to celebrate her bro's bday with
her family down at boom boom room. cool eh!
hahahah! i've never celebrated my birthday with
my family at a pub man! wahahahah! *bish*
*yawn*............. i'm falling asleep....

ahhh - i read this article about malay christians
in malaysia....goodness! like the malaysians
are intending to jail them for converting???
shessh! this is the link ---->
http://jmm.aaa.net.au/articles/10.htm
hurrr!!!??? i seriously think it's unfair.
everyone is born and entitled to their
own rights and decisions. how can someone
or a country decide for them how they wanna lead
their life? urkkk! hmmm....
but it is malaysia we're talking about. it's
like turning against islam when u're in....arab???
i dunno...wahahah! hmm... aiyooo....
how can...how can..... *shakes head*
i think if my mum catched me saying this....
she'll probably open her big eyes at me and glare!
hahha! but...i think i told her abou this B4....
yea... i think so...hahah! i always love debating
with her over issues.... cos she'll be supporting one
side... and i'll be supporting the other! yea...
it's natural, cos we naturally don't agree on stuff!
hahah! certain stuff la...hehe...
and we'll end up shooting facts...hahah!
and i'll shoot and shoot and she'll just tell me,
"ok la... if u think that way i can't say anything else."
wahahahahh!! that's my mama! giving in to me?
hahah! or just too tired to battle it out with me??
wahahah!

it's 230am...... days of our lives is on... but i watched it
in the afternoon just now...hmm...
and sonia...is still somewhere...haha! *yawn*.....
i think i shan't stare at this comp already....
or i'll be even sleepier....=/
time to say nitey nite!

mp3 spinning = Dc Talk - Lord I Lift Your Name on High

hmmm.... a last blog before i say good night??
haha! i have no idea why i'm so tired....
but if anyone asks me out right now...
think i'll go out... cos i'm dying to eat!!!!
la la la la la!!!!
i have this BAD habit of eating at night!
it's a torture!! cos i wanna eat - yet i have
to get scared of getting fat..... *sigh*

i'd recommend class 95 at nights man...
other than the mellow voice of the dj...
the song's are great! =)

sonia came over as i said - but to sit around,
eat, chat and watch tv! hahaha!
she finished her project already... so yuppp!
hope it'll be good la huh... that woman ah!!
*shakes head*
was watching the the 7pm show....
then singapore idol. hahaha! and as usual,
the both of us commenting away on the singers.
christopher lee should just GET OUT! his singing
sucks like major big time! like he's really the worst
amongst everyone else! even the malay guy i dislike
can sing.... a little better! hahahah! a little la huh...
hmm...and the best is still olinda and sylvester...
hmm...is it spelt as sylvester...or slyvester? i see
lot's of SLY......but isn't that pronounced as sly..?
ok..whatever... haha!
and the two people who are strong, which are those two...
are both wearing white!
hmmm...class 95 is saying that if u're hungry now...
u shouldn't binge and eat snacks! eat something healthy...
argh!! why must he say that now! i'm hungry!! sigh...
think i'll eat my Lay's later! wahahah!

i think "Get Real" is real good show. seriously...
but i hardly get to catch it. cos firstly,
i may not be home... secondly... i tend to forget
it's showing. LOL! it's on monday's and wednesdays...
and the only time i watch it..is when i'm flipping
thru' channels!! shessh! hmm..they touch on real life
issues..(duh! the title says it all) and it's good cause
you can relate to them! cool eh! they should
have more of these kinda programmes! something
more....meaningful and worth the watch! heh...
like AS IF i don't watch nonsense like that! hahah!
i'm a cartoon freak & days of our lives person man! hahah!

alright alright... i need to make supper plans now...
hungry!!
chaosss!!

testing.....

.281004 / another day has arrived..........

oh good afternoon world!
heh - my arms are aching!! think i didn't stretch
enough after doing my weights yesterday...
*sigh*
now i end up with aching arms....
anywayyyzzz....
was @ zouk yesterday. was supposed to go down
to chinablack like @ 11+.... but ended up staying
@ zouk..... my...
hmmm... met quite a few friends down @ phuture.
hahah! michelle and rebecca...then saw sheena
and friend too... and jason! wow!!
quite shocked to see him there cos i was asking
randy if he was coming and i end up seeing
jason.... haha! but i think there's something weird
going on btw them...like they aren't close anymore
or something....hmmmm....
whatever..none of my business anymore right. LOL!
yea.... anyway, phuture was not bad...but was only
there for awhile cos pam was asking me over to the
girl's platform @ zouk. and i heard the nice song by
stagga lee!! woooo!! the last time i heard that song
was like @ cheeky monkey's! shessh! hmmm...just that
phuture's really small..... really cramped! if they
extended the space... i'm sure it'll be much better!
hmmm....zouk was.......retro retro retro.....
haha! found it a little weird cos i haven't danced
retro in a LONG time! hahaha! and i found myself
like so foreign dancing on the platform of zouk!
cos i'm sure the few around me, pam and sonia
are regulars. hahaha! i dunno... it just seemed
kinda foreign for me.
like hmm...i dunno how to express how i feel...
hahaha! but ya.... then as usual, the middle
platform people were dancing like robots!
with all their hand signs and body movement.
shesssh! like some para para dance man!
i wonder if they like gather together to practice
all their "moves" and stuff....shessh! and who's
like the trail blazer of this man! hmmm........
but oh well, last night was an experience....
after a long long time that is. haha! was quite ok
la huh.... fun in a way too....
and oh yes!!! 2 girls fell off the platform yesterday!!
major shocking!!!! i think one of them was high
and she kinda pushed the other down.....
ya!!! and the platform was relli high! even higher
than chinablack's top platform man! shesssh!
it was a scary sight alright...
just imagine if it happened to be anyone of us???
OUCH!!!! i think the more sobber girl was relli
shocked la... cos her face was like in a blank! heh...
poor girls.... think they should allow 'high' people
to go on the platform for safety reasons..... LOL!

miss sonia's coming over to do her project -
gonna help her out with her project too...
as much as i can la huh... that girl ah...
she's gotta hand it up tmr la! aiyooo....
haiz - i have nothing to say la huh...
if she wants me to help her out with em',
i'd gladly do it la huh... at least than i have something
to keep myself busy with u noe....
haha! like nowadays, i have nothing in my hands,
all i do is watch TV, surf, work out in my room
and......rot? hahaha! oohhh....and i have my eng
exam on the 3rd of nov!!! ahhhh!! hahahah!
i just remembered! very forgetful nowadays....
gotta stop drinking too much! hmmm....boringz...
lucky for me 3rd is a weds..and not thurs..hahah!
if not sianzzz...hahaha!

.halloween....or holloween..?.

wonder what activity's up for the weekend...
hahah! with people celebrating halloween and all...
hmm....why do pple celebrate halloween???
like doesn't halloween glorify evil?? hmmm....
and why do people dress up in ghastly ghostly
costumes to freak each other out??
like what's the celebration for??
____________________________________

ahhh...okok...i've seemed to answer the question
on my own. hahah! was reading up @ yahoo
on what the meaning is and how it originates
and all....hmm...many different perspectives la huh...
complicated... but somewhat get the idea of it.
but oh well, it's commercialised nowadays....
so it's kinda....DUH! like... every 31st of 30th oct...
u dress up...take photos... freak someone out....
ya da ya da ya da.... yea..... kinda duh! haha!
whatever la huh.... not my problem anyway right....
i'm just the very kpo one who thinks about so many
things and tries to analyse this...and that....
hahaha!
like how i was talking to sonia in the train...
about how a kid got banged by a blader in ECP
and that there was no justice! wahahah!....
>>scenario<<
venue: ECP
day: saturday afternoon...many kiddies, many families...
people involved: kid on bike & blader.
ok, there was this guy. was blading at quite a normal speed...
hmm... ok la, a lil fast la huh....
i was just behind that kid with blading...
then.... that kid like suddenly changed lanes
w/o looking....and this blader was coming... and he was
kinda close already... and he couldn't move to the other side
cos there were bikers la... think he
got quite of a shock also...so he banged into that kid...
hmmm..... ok...
let's see....so who's at fault? the kid right??
ok, that's how i see it to be though...
but everyone nearby looked at him like he
was the one at fault...... think the mum kicked a fuss
and all.... i mean...unfair right! ur kid was the one
who switched lanes and stuff.... and u're the one
getting blamed...
like he was hurt too! shessh! where's the justice right!
hmmm.... well, i feel for him la..hahah! but it's a
kid..... so people usually take their side and all...
hmmm... oh well...
and because of me and my big mouth, talking to
sonia about this stupid subject on the MRT...
this lady beside me started talkin to me!!!!!
wahahah!! ya...she was telling me that there's
no justice on earth and all....ya da ya da ya da....
then she was telling me i can only find justice
in christ.. ok..understandable.
so i thought she was gonna preach to me, which
i was ok with... BUT...she started to talk about...
hmmm.... firing the boss and working under pple
and all!! YIKES!!
she was saying, we need to face all these stupid
faces everyday at work and we have to be their yes
man and all....so i entertained her la... agree with her..
told her my views.... hahaha! then, she was like
asking me, so would u like to fire ur boss? would u
like to stand on your own and be the boss...and what
not.... i was like...err... who wouldn't right... hahaha!
so she was like ..."ok, give me ur number!"
LOL!!! and at that time, sonia wasn't with me alrdy
la!! so i was scared! hahahah! so i asked her....
"you want my number for what...??"wahahahh!!!
then she was like... so we can discuss about this matter.
to see how we can fire our boss! WAAA!!!!
and she was like searching for pen and paper alrdy...
how could i say no right..... so..i gave her my old number....
wahahahahah!!! like what do u want me to say?? no no no...
and walk away??? hmmm.... i cldn't do that la...so many
people would be looking and it wldn't be good for both
me and her! hahaha! so ya...... and i gave her my email...
gave her the right one la...see what she has to say...
that's if she has la! hahaha!
well, maybe she's just really stressed out at work la huh...
like facing problems with the boss and all? just got retrenched?
i dunno - many possibilites.... well.... my blessings for her..hee..

ok, i think i have crapped enough. haha!
if not hwee's gonna say my blog's too WORDY again...
*bleuks*
go watch TV!!!

hmmm...there's another wake boarding challenge
down @ bedok reservoir on 31st oct.
think 30th and 31st oct. wow!
what's with all the wake boarding activities eh!
if only i could wake board!! looks damn fun!!!
wanted to go learn it with hwee @ batam...
but i also dunno what happened...
hahahah! think maybe we were saying not
mentally and physically prepared?
not sure...
ahhh!!! class 95 has a nice song!

deff lepards (if tts the correct spelling) - when love
and hate collide.

it's funny that i've been listening to class 95
like every single day. not been listening to 987
or 98 for sometime now..heh.
maybe cos the songs here r more relaxing.
heh... and nicer to sing to. like it's so nice to
sing to all these oldies. haahhah! and they have new
songs too... so it's quite ok.

hmmm...i'm hunrgy. think i'll go shower and
get changed first...

.tuesday 26 oct.

i'm munched on a bag of potato chips and a
banana just like 5 mins ago!! urgh!!! it's becoming
a very bad habit! snacking! shesssh!
the fats at my waist r accumulating!!! *beeeep*

anyway, today was a GOOD day!! cos why....
i went down to the gym!!!! YEAY!!!! after a loooong
time! LOL! 30 minutes on the stomp machine,
free weights, hands and abs... cool!
and after gym...i had what...... pasta @ LIPS cafe!!!
AND... a slice of chocolate cheese cake!
ok, gym was practically wasted!! hahahah!
yupp - u can say that again! hahaha!!
wanna go on thursday..... but i've got something
on @ 3.... and if i go in the morning...it'll be too early
and i'll have time to waste!!
hmmm....lemmi see if i can use my charm and drag
someone out? wahahahah! yaaa right! not enough
charm...=(
if not i'll be missing gym again..... urgh!
i really miss the day programmes.....
like...i've been having too many late nights..
and the mornings are always wasted!
that's why it's good to be out in the day yesterday
and today! great to go out not having the intention
of going for supper or clubbing! hahaha!
doing too much of it makes me sick...... *bleuks*
like wasting my time...... but i don't wanna stay home...
but i don't wanna club..... oh man! hahaha!
though i like dancing .... LOL!
hmmm..whatever! haha! need to find khakis to do
something different! maybe sports or something.....
which i've been missing out on...
and zhen was saying netball!!! so exciting! yeay! hahaha!
ahhhhhh!!! was looking thru the netball forum...
hmmm... this group usually play thursday nights -
at some court in yishun. hmmm...very near my place!
ahhhhh! should ask angel to go for the netball thingy
too cos she's interested too. but she doesn't have the
time ah..... that nurse! hahahah!

.events.

there's this wakeboard tour this 6-7 nov @ sentosa.
cooool! interested? go check this link....
http://www.wakeboarder.org/
but think it's gonna be super packed. hahah!
then there's gonna be this car exhibition this
november too. well well well, nov certainly
has a few events lined up eh....
heh... hopefully i'll have a healthier line of events
lined up...hahaha!

anyway, i finally signed up for my degree course
in Curtin - but it'll be in singapore. not sure if i
should go over to perth for my last year.
it's gonna be good la... but perth....
sigh... why perth!!?? but curtin's a good school
for marketing... but why perth!? LOL!
oh well, yea, just having a headache on if i
should start school in dec or march.... *sigh*
hmmm.... alrightie...
i think it's time i concentrated on my show.
days of our lives!! LOL!
tmr's gonna be a longggg day before i step out to
go down to club......
gonna be home home home..hahah!
and the night's planned for clubbing.... AGAIN....
heh... oh well.... we'll see, we'll see....
chaos!

.251004.

i didn't waste my monday!
yeayy!
went down to MIS to check out the school,
place, fees and etc....
well, it's quite alright... just that the location's
like soooooo far! shessh! pasir panjang!
just imagine if i have to reach school by 9
every day!???? ohhhh my! that's gonna be a
MAJOR problem! hahaha! if only i drive.....
wouldn't it much much easier? hahah! to
think about it...... no diff what right! it always jam's
in the morning! =/i'm just very confused if i
should start schoolin december ...... or in march.......
HEADACHE! december's hmm.... too near?
but march is........... toooo far! like...nov, dec, jan,
feb THEN march...hahah!but dec.... it's holidays...and
christmas...and...oh whatever! hahaha!
but if i start in december...it's only gonna be like
once or twice a week, depending on how many
units i'm taking in dec. hmmm..... i'll just have to
sit down...and think about it again......=/

met pam later in the day to get some handphone
thing settled. walked from P.S to Centrepoint then
Emerald then back down to P.S! haha! what a walk!
actually it was time i walked alot la huh....i've been
eating WAY too much la huh...had lunch @ terra
cafe down at bugis.... not bad!then had my ham &
cheese taco pachi - then had mos burger!
............my......and now...i'm feeling hungry again!!!
HELP!!! i dun dare weigh myself man! was
looking around P.S for a nice pair of flats....but....oh well,
as usual i can't find a nice pairthat i like.=(
i hate looking for flats! cos it's always a neverending search!
the last time i was looking for one, i ended up buying
a pair of birkenstocks! the pair that i told derelyn
that her slippers look like market slippers!!hahahaha!!
and i got that pair! now..............i'm getting that comment
for myself! shit!waaa!!! blood booooil man!! urghhhh!! =<
yes yes yes.... retribution for telling derel that her
slippers look like "go-market-wear slippers!"
hahahah!! maybe cos of the colour la...i mean i
myself thought that it's looking more and more worn
out.... but in fact...it's not! it's still in a quite good condition!
justthat the sole gets black whenever it touches water.
hahaha!and the other pair of flats that i usually
get is fromMphosis! cos other than birkenstock's...i
only find mphosis ones nice!!! but....they aren't
very lasting. the sole usually gets worn out very
very fast! *sigh* hmmm....when will i ever find a nice pair?
hahahah! or maybe i'm just...fussy? hmmm..i dun
think so la huh.... heh...

hmmm...just sent my bother down to 7-11 to get
me some snacks...man am i hungry.... but i'm just
too lazy to cooknoodles! haha! so well.... snacks it
shall be to ease my hunger! hahahaha! yummmm yummmmm!!
hopefully he gets the correct ones....if not i'll be ...........=/ =(
i hate it when i crave for something andthe wrong
one comes along! aiksss!
hmm...go watch some TV....chaos!

.241004.

boy oh boy have i been neglecting this bloggie of mine!
LOL!
so much has happened.... that i dunno where to start!
and i don't even remember the events that have happened
for the past days... haha! geez....

.Ladder 49.

oohh ya!
watched ladder 49 @ cine on ...ermm...... friday! yeshh...
hmmm....ok, this show........ i wouldn't recommend you
to watch it during the weekends - cos it'll not be worth
the money! haha! hmmm..... something that u can find
on...HBO! hahaha! hmm.... well, it's not very very bad...
but..hmmm...could have done better la huh...
not very impactful - storyline's kinda predictable though.
so... yuppp!
u go rate that show for yourself man! i'm not rating! haha!
i STILL wanna go catch exorcist!! i wanna watch that show!!
urgh!! irritating the shit outta me that almost everyone
has watched it! and i missed 13 going on 30!!!!!
how could i!!!!! URGH!!!! irritating!!!!!
BUT...............i've caught shark's tale!! woooo!!! cutecute..haha!
caught The Terminal on DVD as well.... hmmm....
it was quite nice la huh.... but i didn't get to finish watching
the show. awwww........ cos me, sonia and vince went over
to josh's and we had to leave...haha! so..... there goes the ending!!
oooops!

.chinablack ..... again.

MY HAIR STILL STINKS OF SMOKE FROM
CHINABLACK!!!! URGH!!!
i can still smell the smoke in my hair!! ahhh!!! and
i've like shampoo-ed and conditioned it last night
and this noon!!! =<
hmm...and talking about chinablack.... my...
left that place only at 4+.....think like 430...
shesssh! AFTER SONIA LEFT - i was sitting in the
toilet as usual, trying to compose myself. hahaha!
i met a few friends there - and they asked me to
drink la! nooooo gooooood!!!! they opened their own bottles
so drinks were kinda thick! and randy & guyz were there
too! haha! but i didn't really stay with them la....
if not i'll probably die of an overdose of alcohol!
hahahah!! so i was sitting in the toilet talking on the
phone!!! hahaha! it's good u know!
i get to sit, w/o that noisy loud music blasting my ear drums...
LOL!! hmmm...ya...the music was good @ 3++
la huh....but i just wasn't in much of a mood to dance.
with the headache that's killing me - which may have
been caused by either drinking...or hunger..haha!
oh well..... ya..then when i got back - i was talking to angel on the
phone! hahahah! till like 645 or so..haha!
it's really good talking to her man! hahaha!
i mean....it's like weird....
at one time.... we were like.... ok, we disliked each other,
and now... we're like talk talk talk...wahahaha!!!
but it's good la huh! always good to have a friend=)

hmmm...i'm off to watch my TV!!! chaoss!