13th aug.

and guess what time i woke up today...
unbelievable!!!!
3+PM man!! hahah!!
slept at 7am yest... hahaha!
was online and was watching TV... goodness me..
i wonder how i was able to stay up till 7.
haa!
but i was a pig la... slept till like 330... sesssh!!!

i wanna go IKEA and eat meatballs!!!!!
hahaha!
but i doubt i'll get to eat it la...
cos i'm only going there at 8++ probably 830...
AND i only have 1 1/2 hrs to shop...
and there won't be time to queue for meatballs!!!!
URGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
irritate me!!!!!

la l a la... haha!!

miss hwee!
i forgot to take the book from
you!! oh man!
ok - let me finish my book, then i'll take
the book from you alrightie!
it was good talking to you. see.... it was good
right??!
i really can't stand the way we're so different
from each other YET so much alike!!!
so surreal right!??
hee...now we know more about ourselves
and our flaws. they aren't perfect and so are
we.
and yes.... it's us. haa!

today was a good card session. haa!
went down to hwee's place to play cards with
sonia, jason and of course hwee!
haa! we had lotsa CHANG BEER and
JOHNNY WALKER with green tea
or soda water. but more of the soda water.
but - jason had more of the black label. haa!
we were like enjoying the CHANG beer.. haha!
i think chivas or... what's the other one???
i forgot the name - is nicer.. wahah!!
or maybe CHOYA with green tea!!!!
hahah!! should bring shoya over one day.
haha!! yummy! haa!

anyway... i won like.... $5.20. wahah!!!
played small la. like 10 cents / card.
haa! never played mahjong cos mr jason doesn't
play mahjong. haa!
was just telling sijia, she and clarence shld play
mahjong with me and jack. haha!! cos clarence also
wants to learn how to play. wld be quite interesting
i think. haa! then can win their money! wahah!!
well - i think this way of gambling isn't very
addictive for us. it's just a FUN kinda thing.
like - if we're free then play la!
and anyway, they're small bets! so - what the heck!
haa! unless those people who are addicted to
buying totos and 4D's or going to illegal betting
places or what not. that's BAD! haha!
not that i'm saying what i'm doing now is good la.
hahaha! unexcusable. haha!

funny part was that when jason got into hwee's hse,
he was talking to her dad who was there watching
golf after he finished talking to me!! haha!
ask usual, hwee's father likes to talk to me in MALAY.
hahah!! purposely one la he!! hahah!!
then he was sitting there - talking to jason.. abt God knows
what!! haha! and me and hwee were sitting in the
kitchen laughing la. haa! funny.
then we ordered MAC's cos they now have 24/7 delivery
service. quite cool eh! no minimum order some more!
just an extra $2 charge. quite cool la seriously. haha!
but i think we played cards till we were abit too tired that
some people got kinda blur in looking @ their cards.
haha!! like miss sonia tan. hah! and poor her had to
do the accounts and see who win / loses how much. haha!

1. Jason = $5.50
2. Mun = $5.20
3. Hwee = -$3.20
4. Sonia = -$7.50

poor sonia. wonder why she lost so much also ah!!
haiyoooo!!!
but ok la! we all had fun. haha!
accompany that miss hwee! haha!
ok la, i better go zzzzzzzz soon alrdy!
hahah! i wanna go IKEA tmr!!! hee!
maybe walk ard - got things to buy then buy.
cos i dunno what i wanna buy also.
i just wanna buy storage. like boxes - so i can put my
files & etc. very messy la my room state. haha!
jian bu de guang!!!!!
just hope i won't die in the crowd tmr.
i wanna eat MEATBALLS!!!!
but usually - there's a LONG queue man! shessh!
hahah!!

alrightie... nitey nite!

i'm in a dilemma.
should i get 1 or 2 birks??!

i'm sure to get the english garden black...









then.... should i get the florida flamingo!!!???











of the turquoise cancun??!!





















but with the price of the top 2 - i can get the
perlmutt colour i wanted!!!!













*sigh sigh sigh*
dunno what to get! sigh..................

doesn't this blog look nice... so many birks!!!!!
hahaha!!!

12th aug.

ok hwee! lend me your book ok!
i'm currently on this library book -
"the questions of Jesus"
it really chanllenges yourself. it challenges
you faith that is.

goes like:

Jesus simply raise questions,

"Why do you ask
me about what is good?"

"Why do you call upon me?"

"Do you think I can tell you what is good?"

"If I can tell you what is good, will you start
to do good?"

yea... stuff like that.
find it quite good though. very thought provoking.

well hwee, i think i'm learning to..... listen and think
before i start all my yakkings.
cos i probably spout too much b4 anything else.
i dunno - maybe he has "brain-washed" me to think
so... wahah!! but yea.... it's true la.
i'm always ....... getting angry with the people
i love. like my mummy - haha!
i don't wanna get angry with her - and it doesn't feel
good, but ya... it happens! see... it's probably just my
temper - habitual.
*sigh* MAN!!
self - reflection. haa!
yea.... makes u realise alot of stuff - so you shld
probably go have your quiet time and reflect on
what people are saying abt you, abt this and abt that.
hee.
not that i've reflected and changed totally -
but... it probably takes time. hopefully i even change.

let things take place as it should be.....
but don't let it take control of you.
let it flow by - then decide.
but don't wait till the last minute where u've submerged
totally. that's what i think.
it'll be hard when u're in deep.
but i guess - it always happens.
to me, to everyone else.

the word whatever.
if only we could just say whatever to everything
we dislike.
i think the world - or our world would be a happier one.
cos i think we bother too much.
we think too much and i think we expect too much too.
LOL!!
oh well, if we wanna console ourself -
we can just say... there are worse people than us!!
but do we really wanna be like the 'worse' people?

it's raining - and i know i need to sleep.
but... i just had to write.

someone triggered some thoughts in me.
it made me re-think about what kinda person
i am. and i thought. 'am i not a nice person afterall?'
am i not that nice person people say i am - or
i think i am. to a certain extent - it's hard to be nice.
easier to be the bad person than the nice.
the nice has to think for many.
i can't tell A this.... cos bla bla bla and i don't wanna
hurt B so... bla bla bla. makes you look like a hypocrite
in the end right?
so is it good being a good person? the bad person just -
says what he/she really thinks! that's all. and that makes
the bad person. cos he/she says what the ears can't take.
and i thought - maybe i'm just a nice friend - and i can't
be a nice g/f. or am i a nice friend at all in the first place?
so i was just thinking - so what kinda person am i??
on one side - i'm a nice person, and on the other hand -
i'm someone that doesn't understand. not nice.
it's hard to be someone - hard to please all - hard to be
a nice person.
maybe i don't know how to love? or i have a different
perception of love that i do it the wrong way?
so.... what did i do again? lol.

current mp3 spinning : James Blunt - You're Beautiful
(a great song. simply beautiful)

it's friday again!!
boy does time pass by fast!
doesn't feel long ago that it was monday...
and now it's already friday.

got back from billard not long ago.
went to west coast to play number ball.
was quite good la... but i didn't win ofcourse.
haha!! what do you expect when u're playing
with 3 other guys. haa!
2 of them are like..."zai" la! so how to win tell me!!!
one of them is my bf of course. needless to say. haa!
with his sidekick primary sch mate - zhipeng.
another guy is shanwei - someone they like to "bully"..
haha!! the way they talk's kinda funny! haa!
hahaha!! must go train myself already. haa!
(and i realised i brought home 3 cards!!!)
cos i kept the cards im supposed to hit in my back
pocket. so yes............i forgot to take it out!!!!! MAN!!!


birthdays.

*sigh* anyway, i think i've been having too much
alcohol consumption. seriously!
and i think i'm getting fat due to too much alcohol
comsumption... hahaha!! BEER!!!! shessh!!
too much tiger, carlsberg and heineken!
*faint*
went down to a friend's bday celebration - terence -
down @ al's bar after school, and had a bit to drink
as well. more like beer and other "thick" drinks la!
shessh!! free flow of johnny walker is it!!??
hahah!! seemed like it la! shessh!
yea... went home feeling a little.... tipsy. haha!
a little that is. imagine.. going out of the house
for school - and then going home in the morning
feeling tipsy... wahaha!!
"what did this girl do man!!??"





























(yea, that's the birthday boy alright. drinking
down his beer after the shots. LOL)

and yes... it's 530am now - and i'm not sleepin.
and really, there's just something wrong with my
system now. sleeps early and wake up late. shessh!
i woke up at 2++ today can!
and i slept at 6 last night. yea... was watching this
interesting drama on hall mark channel last night / morning
that's why. "hollywood mum's secret mystery."
or whatever la. haa! but it was nice la!
she was helping her husband trying to clear his name,
cos they suspected him of killing some woman. and
her husband actually had an affair with that killed
woman. haa! woooooo......
but interesting la... eventhough the characters were
not very good looking. hee.


blading is good!!

there's really nothing much to do in spore nowadays.
activities seem to lessen - and the only pple do for fun
is clubbing. shessh!
i'm going roller blading this weds and i really hope we'll
go la! oh Lord, pls don't let it rain on us. yea....
and seriously - i'm having 2nd thoughts abt going to school
after blading. shessh!!!!
go blading like at 3pm.... and lesson starts at 7pm...
kaoz!!!
it's usually the....

1. reach ECP... walk ard - settle down
2. put on blades
3. blade, blade, blade.....
4. slack, sit, talk, whatever!!!
5. and then... the sun will set and it will be like.... 7pm!!!!!!

come on!!! and i have to reach school at 7!!??
you must be kidding right!!??!!
so rush - so not nice!!!!
so............................ ya.. haha!
maybe i'll skip one sales managment lesson!?!
ahahah!!


happily married???

anyway, after going for my friend's birthday that day -
with like... 2 or 3 married couples ard....
i seriously hope that my marriage next time will be
a happy one - a lasting happy marriage.
i mean... they all look so happy together. they joke, they sing,
they play photo hunt, they drink together.....
*sigh* i envy them. haha!
and they're young married couples la...
i mean... like late 20's that is.
and just afew days ago - went to his place after FOP and the
guys were drinking and watching soccer -
while the girls (US) were playing cards and drinking.
i mean... it's quite nice right... when everyone can come
toghether and have fun - despite marriage.
yea.... if only. LOL.


alrightie man!! it's alrdy 6am now...
yes yes - i took 30mins to blog. haha!! did i??!!
yea.. it's nearing 6. better head to the bed man!
hope i don't like wake up at 2++ again tmr man!!
it's super sian!! cos 1/2 my day's gone!!!
urgh!!!
anyway, those who want to buy birks -
HURRY let me know your model okie!!!
chop chop! i can't wait to order my english garden black!!
hahaha!! so tempted to buy 2 birks - BUT.... mr jackson
says i'm wasting money... he says i waste alot of $$!!!
he says i never save!!!! so ya.....
i'm already gonna buy 2 bags - so... i think i should just
buy one pair of birks - cos i just bought one green one.
my shopping list:

1. 2 bags
2. pumps & heels
3. perfume!! (anna sui's depleting.)
4. my bible.

ok - think i'll get scolded by jack for the first 2....
but... haha!! i think it's impt leh!!!!!! hahaha!!
eventhough i alrdy have tonnes of it....
dunno why... it's become a necessity to me now. haha!
hmm... habit? fetish? obsession!? nah.... haa!

ok ok ok... sleep time!
nighty nite!!
(class 95 is the best.........)
let it rain rain rain.........haiz.

urgh....
my server sucks.
think i'll blog when i get home....
can't even upload pics! shessh!
i'm getting irritated with a non-living thing.
i get irritated with everything man!
=/

i'm having a craving... for chocolates.
not just normal chocolates..
but those nice lovely chocolates!!
i wanna go SINS and get chocolates!
i wanna eat GODIVA chocolates!
i wanna eat macadamia nut chocolates!
i wanna eat chocolate jelly beans!
i wanna eat candy!
i wanna eat ice cream again!

*yummmm....*

sometimes i wish i could just run away from everything.
hide in my world.
my dreamland, where things would be exactly the way they should.
then there would be just happiness.

i'm tired of all the shit that's happening to me
that i wish things were just the way it was.

so what does was mean mun?

today's the eve of national day...
8th aug 05
0405AM
wooo...
i wanna see fireworks!!
so romantic... *sigh*
but no... i guess i'm not seeing any this
year....... haha!

anyway, got back not long ago.
went down to FOP today with geok, jason
and sonia. it was quite good. quite la.
i feel that the past couple of year's FOP
was much better. really! yea... me and jason
feel so la, cos we went for them.
but it was still good. it helped strengthen my faith
in the Lord too. =)
happy happy. wanted jack to go down, but
sadly he cldn't make it. hmmm...
i wonder how he'd be if he goes for FOP.
culture shock?? i think he'd be a lil bored,
a lil shocked and a lil scared?? haha!
can get really charasmatic! hee.

the queue this year's also SUPER long la.
it's SUPER long for the SAME crowd that i usually
go every year la! shessh! damn duh la!
talk about they wanna do crowd control la.
every year i go - i see the same amount of pple
as today, but it seems that this is the only year
that i'm queue-ing so terribly for it.
i really hate it when adults start squeezing thru
pple and cutting the line and drag a line of kids along
with them man. like what??? u expect me to
give way to one and then another and then another right.
ploy!!!
even young kids these days - like primary school -
has been manipulated the kiasu way by adults.
haa!

a kid went: "just cut and squeeze. don't care."

SHESSH!!! what do the school, friends, parents or
environment drill in them man!!?
yea... queue-ing was bad la. drained us cos it was
scorching hot. but it was lovely inside though. haa!
i really wanna get the hillsongs CD man.
wonder if the songs this year's nice....

eeeehhhh!! my birks i ordered are here!! haha!
hopefully they're nice. stupid jack said it wasn't nice
when i went to the store to try it on. shessh!
i bought them alrdy man! haha!
but heck it la!
i wanna go buy the black one with flowers on it man!
actually i wanna buy more than ONE!!! hahah!
money??? drop from the sky please??? hehe.

anyway, went down to terence's place with sonia too after
service. the guys watched soccer while the ladies
played cards, drank and snacked. haha!
never did play mahjong, cos i don't think i wanna
face the consequences of losing to joey (terence's wife).
really! she's a mahjong queeeeeeeeennnnnn la!!!
hahah! heard she always wins like in.... hundreds. haha!
shesh. bye bye money!!!
so no thanks. we ended up playing cards and
drinks were our wager. haha! since their house has loads of
hard liquor and booze. lots man! shessh!!
these ppl live to drink! haa!

alrightie... i'm going to go zzzzz man!
super tired and having a headache now already.....
*yawn*
goodnight!!!

did an online personality test...
and this is what it says.

The Window Shopper
Random Gentle Love Dreamer (RGLDf)

Loving, hopeful, open. Likely to carry on an romance from
afar. You are The Window Shopper.
You take love as opportunities come, which can
lead to a high-anxiety, but high-flying romantic life.
You're a genuinely sweet person, not saccharine at all,
so it's likely that the relationships you have had and
will have will be happy ones. You've had a fair amount
of love experience for your age, and there'll be much
more to come.

Part of why we know this is that, of all female types,
you are the most prone to sudden, ferocious crushes.
Your results indicate that you're especially capable of
obsessing over a guy you just met. Obviously, passion
like this makes for an intense existence. It can also
make for soul-destroying letdowns.

Your ideal match is someone who'll love you back
with equal fire, and someone you've grown to love
slowly. A self-involved or pessimistic man is especially
bad. Though you're drawn to them, avoid artists
at all costs.

BEWARE: The Hornivore
CONSIDER: The Gentleman, The Loverboy



so what the heck is a Hornivore????
enlighten me??
lol.

fwah.... tonight was.... a different kinda saturday
spent compared to the other sats i had. haha!
was at chevrons initially with wei xiang and
friends. quite fun la... fun crowd.
i got to sing my "dao dai" and hear my favourite
"shou fang kai" and "an jing"..... *melts*
drank quite a few glasses of beer - but i bet
it was super cheap la!! they pay like....
army personnel price la!! shessh!
i think they drank and drank and drank...
and payed like.... no equivalent to what they drank
man! shessh!
then...played pool.....
with some super good pple la. haha!
but i think i wasn't on form today.
like... couldn't really play man. haha!
my hands are itching for billard man!!!
maybe i shall drag mr koh to play tmr after
service. hahahah!!

after all that stuff - we had supper.....
aiya... i think supper was too full la...
kaoz! maybe i snacked too much while drinking...
hmmm.... and again... maybe not. haha!

alrightie... i gotta like go sleep man! been sleeping
like super late these days. 5++ yesterday...
and today... it's like 452AM alrdy man!
shessh!
sleeeeep!!! or i won't be able to wake up tmr
to meet that guy man!
i wanna go eat my ice cream!! MUST wake up!!
hahaha!!!
n i g h t y n i t e ! ! !

and this is for those who are stressed.
haa!
let loose... and play some...
stupid game ok.
don't let it catch your mouse!!!

http://pya.cc/pyaimg/pimg.php?imgid=14192

okok, thos who understand HOKKIEN -
this is for you. go see see.
haa!
abit duh la. hee...

http://www.footballmotion.com/files/GANGSTER.swf