yooo yooo!
well, my day went quite well today.
also reached home quite fast.
LOL. cos marcus sent me right to my
door step. haha.

celeste and luke didn't come down today.
=( so sad - but okay la.
the day still went quite fast. near the end
of the day was talking to marcus about
stuff - was actually quite cool. he's really
nice to talk to actually. haa!

yawn yawn.. i'm actually quite tired alrdy.
*zzzzzz*
shit man. i'm always tired. everyday tired.
*sigh*
i wish i could wakeboard tmr...
i wanna wakeboard!!!!
URGHH!!!
i miss wakeboarding!!
and i miss church!!!! *sigh*

end of day again. good night.

11th march

awww... my japanese guys have gone home!
BOOO!!!!
for the past 2 days - these two japanese guys
from launch 2000 have really been interesting
people.
first day - they enter the office and they look at
many many clothes and ask for prices... haa!
talk to me a little (due to linguistic differences).
some more they took such a long time @ the shop.
haa! even sat down to read magazines....
uncle tom was like..."where they come from?"
haha!

yesterday - they came in again and look see look see.
and sat to read their magazines. haa!

and today - they asked me to take a photo with them.
LOL!! cos it's their last day here in Singapore.
will only be back next year.
aiyyyaaaa!!!! didn't take a photo with them on my
hp though... MUN!!! hahaha!
both quite cute leh!! hee.

they WERE talking about me once - cos i was asking
marcus for the price of something.....
"j a p a n e s e ... j a p a n e s e.... KAWAII..." hahaha!
i only understood the kawaii part man! wahah!!!
not the japanese stuff though. heh.

okok.. oops!
i gotta do work!
ciao!

to guys out there.

realize that the girl holding onto u..
is PERFECT intheir own special way.
The way she laughs.. Theway she sleeps..
The way she loves you..
The way she tries to please you...

ALWAYS REMEMBER THAT.
She can always walk away and up, getting
someone else who can love her more.
For all you know, there is someone out
there wooing her already, but she is rejecting,
a maybe perfect love for her..
There might also be someone out there..
who is willing to love her more than you are loving
her now, fufill her every need and love her as much
as she loves you.

UNDERSTAND THAT.
Girls have a huge guilty concience. ...imagine this, guys.
When you are holding her today... and then you
cheat on her by hugging and kissing another gal.
and then you run back to her...
and u do the same.... but you see love in her eyes...
What doyou think? Do you feel the hurt?
Can you feel the guilt?
She loves you not because you are good
looking, have money, buy her things, make her
parents happy, or that you have a car. She loves
you for who you are. Your every touch, every
word you say, everything you do.

Guys. Cherish and appreciate your girl.
Don't break her fragile heart.
She is the only one who can love you that way.
You won't wanna regret letting go of that special girl
you have. For everything she has done for you,
the least you can do is to give her unconditional
love as she has given to you.

shit. i just feel like i'm gonna fall ill. urgh.
my body's shutting down, don't really feel
like eating and my throat's very sore.
even after all the water i've been drinking.
it's sooo xing ku.

i'm physically drained and mentally drained.
inside i feel so..... *urgh*
i'm really thinking too much and it's killing me.
where's all these heading?
too much is unsaid. too much is ignored.
but when u reaslise something - u find
that all unsaid isn't necessary to be said.

oh Lord... i can't afford to get sick....

end of day... good night.

i'm in that state again.
not knowing how to feel.
actually - i'm really quite numb to alot
of things around me already.
being ignorant to alot of stuff
and ignoring this and that.
but it seems that it isn't enough.
always thought sonia was the one
in denial - but i think i'm worse.
and i'm amazed at how well i can
just go along and try not to show
my hurt. ok - i'll give him the benefit
of the doubt that he isn't blind -
but i guess what he's doing is also
for my own good.
i guess it's time for me to let go.
i feel that i've given in enough.
have i? yea - even sonia thinks so too.
she thinks i'm super blinded. heh.
and she thinks i'm a "xiao nu ren"...
heh. am i really one? urkk.....
the two songs in my head are from
li sheng jie. shou fang kai and
...."something something jue dui"
dunno how to spell that one.
*sigh*
i know so much yet i'm ignoring
what i know. how i do it - i don't know.
even i think i'm quite amazing.
to kong!
oh Lord.... help me..

today's the 10th of march.....
dunno why but this date feels somewhat familiar!
at work again and i'm feeling very tired.
didn't get much sleep last night and
i awoke at 5 plus... not sure why.
maybe wasn't sleeping @ home that's
why. will always feel uncomfortable
unless it's my bed! haa!
think if i'm on my bed now, i'd immediately
fall asleep. LOL.

after drinking last night - woke up with the
feeling like i'm gonna fall ill. my throat felt dry -
body wasn't feeling too well.
and now, my throat's still feeling sore.
very sore.

drank till i was really quite high last night -
but i still had to take care of justin cos he was
worse off than me. heh. so imagine that.
there u are... already feeling like u just wanna
zzz.. cos u're so high - but u still gotta be
"sober" to take care of another. wahaha!!
darn....

i just wanna go home and sleep.....
gotta wait till 645...
*yawn*

9th march 06

holler!!!
damn... it's really been a LONG time since i last
blogged something. haa!
i've really been TOOOO lazy to blog ever since
i cam eback from my trip.
haven't even uploaded the pics for thailand man...
AIYOO!!!!!
yeap! that's how lazy i've been since i came back.
i was even contemplating to unpack la!!!!!
HAHA!
my luggage was just... calling out for me on the
2nd day man!!
just left the luggage open, took out the necessities
and left the shopping stuff inside the luggage.
hahaha!!
my luggage weighed like 18kg.. haa! but lucky for me...
i have pple who have LIGHT luggages!!!! wahaha!!
always the case.... hee.

ANYWAYSSSSSSS.....
i had a good trip. it was great la... shopping,
eating, taking photos, doing manicures + getting
CHEATED!!! wahahaha!!!!
let that be an experience yaa... hahaha!!

DAY 1 @ BKK
stayed @ the twin tower which was really quite near to
MBK. wanted to head for some thai girl show -
not realising what it was...... *duh*
then - got cheated by this "cab driver" outside the hotel.
BAH!!! haha! nvm....
after that - contemplated on watching the show -
but ended up inside also. 500baht - to watch girls
in bikini.................... doing stnuts with their vagina..........
BASKET!!!!!!
hahaha!!!
super boring laaa! for the girls probably. wahah!
after that... we took a tuk tuk to patpong -
and got bluffed by the tuk tuk driver.
and what did the driver tell us.....................
"today patpong close! i bring you go patpong
3 - there can eat."
cos we told him we wanted to eat - and asked for
suggestions. BASKET!! selfish bastard. haa!
BUT.........
in the end.. we smelt something fishy so we asked the
staff at the restaurant if patpong was open.
AND IT WAS!!! *BISH BISH BISH*
so we headed down to patpong after dinner.
and shop shop shop!!!
OKAYYY!!!! so that was our KENA CHEATED day...
waahahah!! and that was the END of the cheatingss..
hahaha!

DAY 2 @ BKK
1. buffet breakfast
2. went to MBK!! woohooo!!! start of all the shopping
madness... haha!! it was MBK that killed me this
time round.
MBK and the "bridge" of MBK. FWAH!!! it's a far east
man! or bigger! haa! and CHEAPER! heh.
had our lunch + dinner there if i didn't remember
wrongly. had the chinese food @ the shanghai
place i went to the last time i was in BKK.
forgot what we had for dinner though. haa!
we shopped and shopped and shopped and
did manicure..... fwah!! TIRING CAN!!!
then.... BACK TO HOTEL!!!!
3. down to suan lum
was actually quite tired.... dunno la. damn shag.
walk so much + suan lum's so big... BAH!!!
don't think we even completed the whole
of suan lum. didn't really buy much there....
hmmm... let me recall... nah...
don't think so. hmm.. forgot. haa!
bought my voodoo dolls there -
but now.. i regret not buying more... wahaha!
mun ah mun.... LOL. buy buy buy....
bought shirts for justin, mahmut, josh @
suan lum too...

when we headed back... i was already....
SO TIRED!!
i could hardly keep my eyes open man!
some more having my "thing".... urkk!
so i showered and zzzzzz-ed.

DAY 3 @ BKK
1. buffet breakfast again
2. headed to chatuchak!!! THE BIG, HOT, STUFFY
MARKET!!! haha! i think big is an under statement.
it's HUGE. haa!!!
bought afew stuff from there... and the most miserable
thing ever was.................... the lady gave me the wrong
colour for the bag i wanted!!! and i didn't check!!!!
URGH!!!! i'm such an idiot!! sickening.
so irritating leh!!! i felt like from buying 4 bags..
i only bought 3 bags.... so i ended up buying another
one the next day... wahaha!!!
just couldn't take it la. =(

left chatuchak early cos we were quite drained
by the heat and we were alrdy quite tired...
went back to the hotel.... and rested for .... 10 MINS..
wahahaha!!!!!
and......

4. headed to MBK again!!!! wahaha!!!
went to have lunch + early dinner. was like 4 plus then.
we're just mad about MBK. actually the bridge
of MBK. wahaha!!!
then we headed back to the hotel about 630 -
so we could get ready for our night out!!! hahaha!

5. went to Asia Hotel for the cabrolet show.
1000baht leh! not cheap wor. haa! but okay la, for
experience sake - don't mind. ALOT better than
that stupid thai girl show. basket!
could take photos with the ah gua's also! haha!
pretty pretty. hehe.

6. headed to bed supperclub for our clubbing night.
opened a bottle of chivas. haa! cheap cheap.
and interestingly - we got to know sporeans
there. but all guys leh! ahha!!
weird. same hotel and flight as us too. haa
i forgot their names though. wahahha!!!
then got to know another bunch of sporean
guys too - cos sonia wanted to talk to this
guy - who lokoed like a jap!! hha!
seriously looked jap la! the whole bunch
of them looked jap actually. heh.
got photos of them in my camera too...
but lazy to upload for now. hahaha!!!

finished the bottle....
headed back to the hotel after....
*yawn*
was quite awake after the drinking actually -
but fell asleep while watching tv. heh.

DAY 4 @ BKK
1.no breakfast today.. haa! too lazy to wake up.
2. check out day!!!!
3. headed to MBK again after we checked out -
left our luggage @ the hotel.
SEE!!! we're mad abt MBK la. haa!
went to the supermarket to buy LAYS SEAWEED
and SALMON TERIYAKI flavour. hahaha!
bought some "ba hu" stuff for my work place pple
too...
did some last minute shopping and also did manicure...
AGAIN!! hahha!! but this time.. nicer! hee.
i was inlove with it @ that time man! hahaha
4. headed to the airport after that - fell alsp in the
cab.... too tired man.

and it was HOME SWEET HOME after that....
*yawn*

and adding up what i spent in DFS before and after the
trip + shopping + flight + accomodation + misc EQUALS =
SGD$1000 - 1100!!!!
BAHHH!!!!!!!
no one really took me for real when i told them i
spent that much for my BKK trip. haha!
but in real - i did.
i did!!!!

ok - so that's all for my thailand trip....
hahaha!!
next trip...... WHERE!!!?? shanghai? guangzhou?
wahaha!!!
we'll see we'll see.
maybe save enough to go sydney! haa!
but.. not nice to shop there la. unless we
go there for just sight seeing. cool too u know!
then can drive!
COOL! haa!
we'll see then..... haa!

pics................ will be uploaded later on..... hahah!
lazzzzziieeeeee.....