I want to run,

Run as fast as my legs can take me.

I want to run,

Run into your arms where I truly belong.

I want to feel,

Feel like it was yesterday once more.

I want to feel,

Feel all the love you ever gave to me.

I want to sleep,

Sleep so that I can dream of you.

I want to sleep,

Sleep an endless sleep so that I would not wake

wakeboarding rox!!!

i was supposed to go again today.....
but i'm in no position to continue today!!!
URGH!!!!! i so wanna go!!!!
but my right arm's aching, my back's
aching and so is my neck.. can't even
turn to my right fully! hahah!!

yesterday was super fun! haha!
reached punggol marina @ about 1030 - 11.
and as soon as we changed... we hit the
sea man!
and yes.. we got a cute australian pilot
as our instructor for the day. haa!
more like companion la! LOL!
was super nervous the first time man!
like... "shit! will i even get to squat on the
board or will i get dragged and fall flat in the water??"
hahaha!!
but yes yes.. i did manage to hold and squat on
the board...
lemmi tell u man... it was hard!!! hahaha!!
and it was after many tries that i could finally stand
up on the board and maintain it there for quite
some time man!
that feeling was..........AWESOME!! hahah!
like a satisfied feeling that you finally could stand and ride
the waves.. hahah!! just.. SUPER SATISFIED... heh.
that needs a lot of determination and each time before
the boat drags me up... i pray to the Lord.
yes!!! and He showed me the way and he guided
me man!
mun sings: i can do all things, thru Christ who strengthens
me.... la la la!!!
hahahahahaha!!!
i had alot of "whao!!" and "aaahh!!" when i hit was
falling man! hahaha!! lucky they couldn't hear me from the
boat.. cos i had alot of sound effects la! haha!
must entertain myself right!!
fell so many times man! haha! *piakkk!* but it was all
part of learning how to wakeboard man!
what's it w/o falling!! hahah!

ange stood up faster than me la... haha!! she's good man!
for me.. that driver said i was too soft on my board,
not putting enough weight on e board.. hahah!!!
ok la.. look at me man! weight? haa!
so i just needed to stand more strongly on my board and
i made it up without the waves pushing me away! haa!
the next time im going... - i'm gonna learn how to
move form right to left man!!!!
woooohoooo!!!!

well, we also had a good advantage yesterday.
cos there's a wakeboarding competition on sat and sun
and we got to meet the pro riders and we were on the
chase boat watching them ride the .... waves..! haha!
like as if the waves very big like that ah! haa!
but they were good man!!!
DUH!
when do u get to be so up close with these
pro riders man! haa!
they were all from aussie -
and if u go to www.pssa.com.sg -
u can see their pics! hee.
but me no interest in ang mohs.. haa!
dunno about next time, but now, they don't
really appeal to me. seriously. haa!!
so their appearance there was so so la -
other than their cool wakeboard moves. haa!

after watching them ride -
they went back to shore and we started to
ride again.. haha!! damn cool la!
this time we went over the other side of the island
where it was LEGAL to wakeboard. hahah!!
cos the place where they boarded..
actually......
was illegal to wakeboard ...
and the police coast guards were patrolling.
hehe.
the other side was cleaner to board. the waters i
mean. maybe tt was why it was legal to ride there??
hahah!
we rode for about another 2 hrs... then headed back
to land!

left the place at about 5 plus... and we headed down
to have our.... xian yu chao fan!!!!!
so... it was quite a good day afterall!
good activity that took us 3/4's of our day - making
me darker and achy... (but no regrets),
then our favourite xian yu chao fan!!!!
BEST! haa!!
but we each had our intervals of giddiness after everything
she had it during dinner.. and i had mine when i
was at home.... i felt giddy looking at the comp screen
and i was super tired.. i had to drag myself from
the bed to the comp to the toilet and to off my lights.
like..... omg.... hee.

i can't wait to wakeboard again!!!!!!!
any takers!!?? hahah!!
hwee... u gotta try it man!!!
im sure you'll LOVE it too! haa!
ciao!

im up to the... top of my head with my laptop!!!!
URGH!!!
one more time it crashes.................
i.....................
i............................
i'm gonna ask my dad for a new one!!!!
URGH!!!!!
i just feel like killing this laptop man!!
URGH!!
2nd time in a week!!!

19th october.

okay. i'm officially 21 alrdy. haa!
a year nearer to ageing skin...
shards!
went to mind cafe today for project discussion.
well, it went so so la. gotta chop chop finish
then can hand in soon already.
pray it all goes well.

anyway, me, sijia & daph stayed behind to
play game! hahah!
we played a new game called settlers something.....
hahah! it was quite fun la.. and i won!!!
wooohooo!!!
like u gotta build houses and bla bla bla la...
haha! was kinda fun!
after that - me and sijia headed down to town
to go topshop.................. BUT........
topshop was CLOSED la!!! basket!
hahaha! go down there just to go
topshop and its closed!!
*grumbles*
nvm... tmr then go.
so.. we walked ard wisma and we each ended
up buying a project shop bag!!!
hahah!!
oh man! terrible ah!
she bought a big bag to replace her other big bag
that snapped.... and me.....
i bought an orange bag to.........
add to my bag collection... haha!!
but it was quite nice la! hee.
plain...... but nice.
contemplated on buying the small sling bag which i
lost... but i think i seldom carry ard sling bags...
so bought a shoulder carry bag.

anyway, jiajia surprised me with agar agar today!!!
SO SWEETTT!!!
she and clarence made agar agar for me...
cos i once said in the car that i had this recipe
which i like alot.. haha!
then the best part was..............
SHE BOUGHT A PIGLET MOULD AND MADE THE
AGAR-AGAR IN A SHAPE OF A PIGLET'S FACE
!!!!!!!!
haizz.... i BU SHE DE eat the piglet face....
hahaha!! just too bad the agar2 wasn't pink..
hahaha!!!!
so sweet right... then she had other small pieces
of jelly that covered the piglet face so i won't
see that it's a piglet face..
haha!!
so sweeeet!!!!
omg... i love her to bits.. hahaha!!

alright.. gonna watch TV now then carry on with
studying later... *yawn*
tataz

18th oct 05.

i had loads of fun down at sentosa today. haa!
thanks guys!
zhen was working at sentosa so i met up with her
today too! and she passed me my prezzie. haha!
so nice..... =) thanks dear!

anyway, clarence, jia and me played the go cart
and the chair lift today. haa!
had three rides altogether... but at different times
la!! during the first ride - had it with zhen also
during her break time. and it was raining quite
heavily la!
the chairlift drenched us man!
cos we were so high up and nearer the clouds...
so the droplets were bigger and heavier la!!
shessh!!
so we were wet wet wet when we got down.
hahaha!!
it was raining quite badly so we chilled at beans
before playing our second ride.
hahaha!
after that... we went to walk walk around....
down the "escalator", beach, fountain, merlion...
whereever man!!
hahah! we were like tourists la! but it was fun!
we took about ........ 100 odd photos! haha!
imagine that man!!

went for our 3rd go cart and chairlift ride after
our long hot walk then headed down to sakae sushi
for dinner.
where we ate our dinner was cool la!
it was by the beach... and i was facing the sun set!
OMG>........ so nice!!!!!
ahaah!!
just that for awhile it drizzled and we had to move
in and out..
hahaha!
the sunset was bbbbbbeauuutiful!
hee.

well, today was a good day....
tiring, but i had fun.
i love my friends.... =) =) =)
*hugs*
now back to my project....
booo.... LOL.

when i looked into your eyes
i could see how much i love u and
it made me realise.

and i think to myself.
what do i do and where do i go
from where i am.

why is it always hard
and why is it always me.

so was it fulfilled,
or was it unfulfilling.

i wish you'd take all the questions away.
like the way you take my feet off the ground,
just that you never knew.

my sad story of my lost photos....
and my birthday.

i had a wonderful birthday celebration on sat.
but sad to sad - all the photographic memories
of sat is gone. shessh. all because of my bleddyy
laptop. kinda died on me this morning and i couldn't
do anything to save stuff on my C drive.
sorry guys! no photos for u and me.
quite sad... all the photos of me with hwee, pam,
erin, jack all gone.... so sad! only one 21st and i've
lost all the pretty pretty photos......
and when we all look so pretty in them... *sigh*

anywayz.... i had dinner @ fish & co with erin,
pam, hwee, sonia and vince. was supposed to go
to the wheelock one - but sonia ended work late
so we decided to go to the nearest fish and co
for her - centrepoint. haa!
weird right.... dinner kinda screwed up a little.
cos of the place and the time we had dinner.
we ate only @ about 930pm??!
shessh. talk about late.
but dinner was all good - but the photos
over dinner are GONE>........ urgh.
you won't know how upset i am that the
photos are gone man......

after that - headed down to MOMO.
had alot of fun.. drinking and dancing..
and taking photos... again...
hahaha!
it was a fun night... and i got super wasted.
talk about SUPER ok!
i could hardly remember what i was doing
that night la.. i mean the later part of the night!
hahaha!
it's amazing how i go HUH when i heard stories
from ailian, sijia, clarence and jack. hahaha!!!
so embarrassing ..........................
like sonia loves to say.... "that night... it wasn't me...
it was my twin sister!!" hahaha!

anyway, thanks to all that came and thanks for
making it all great for me, especially MISS SONIA
TAN for helping me arrange this and that...
*hugs*
love u guys loads man! no photos to show my grandchildren..
my 21st birthday.... but......
it's all in the heart and mind. =)

I LOST ALL THE PHOTOS
ON MY BDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!
JUST KILL ME!!!!!
URGHH!!!!
i wanna die...............................
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there were like 90++
photos and cos of my STUPIDDD
comp that died on me..
i lost it all!!!!!!!