it's really irritating when a bubble
you've been blowing simply just
bursts. not only is it irritating but
it's painful. what you've put into it
has bursts into millions and can't be
re-joined together. but sometimes,
even if you put energy and force
to blow it up, it may just burst infront
of your eyes -
cos some things are just meant to be
and no matter what you do to change
it - it may never end up working.

(530am)

well, went down to liquid room today
after heading to jason's pub. well, kim
n ans liked the place - just that there
were no seats. for ken and brendon,
think they just hate the old crowd there.
you know la - the younger generation...
HAHA! like as if i'm so old like that!

liquid room was cool - went to sit @ the
chill outplace and it was already cool enuf.
saw silver and kaye there! man!!! kaye!!!
shitty man! he looks damn GAY!!! and
the best part...he seems perfectly fine man!
shessssh! oh well, how can u detect
blood in urination from the outside right?
ahahah! saw herman there also! shitty man!
hate hate hate him! like i just had to see him
twice today!!??

heading down to cheeky monkeys or
chinablack tmr night - oh man! so tiring,
yet im still going. end @ 1am though...
so just hope i won't be missing much fun..hahah!
alright, im off to sleep alrdy - nitey!

OH what the heck!! it's back man!!
better not meddle with this
thingy anymore..off to bed now..
=)

shit...it's gone again!
what the heck!!

oh my! i finally found out how to use
enetation thing! all thanks to mss dee!
haha! hope it works!!
now u guys can comment! talk!!!

i wanna go on a holiday! anywhere
you name it! beat it genting or JB man!
i wanna get away from all the stress
i'm having!!! i wanna get away from
work. i wanna rest. i wanna relax.
i wanna sit in the tub and sleep.
i wanna roll on the queen sized bed.
i wanna shop, i wanna eat, i wanna
take photos! i wanna act as a stupid
tourist. i wanna get out of here!!!
*throws myself on the bed*

Heart of Gold
Pure. Tried and true. You are deeply loving
and caring. You stand the test of time and
give without expecting anything in return.
You long for someone who will shine
as brightly as you.

What is Your Heart REALLY Made of?
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// FIRST, CURRENT, LAST //

> FIRST

> First best friend: think it was winnie.. i dunno..
> First date: Can't remember
> First break-up: *shrugs*
> First self purchased album: ehh - so long ago man!
> First funeral: hmmm....my grand-dad
> First pets: none so far.. i want a dog!
> First enemy: winnie! haha!
> First play/musical/performance: was in a
play in primary school - acted as a mouse..wahah!


> CURRENT

> Current girl best friend: CHAM HUI!!
> Current martial status: attached to a cafe! haha!
> Current song playing: class 95..
> Current thoughts: ....... dunno what im thinking of man!
> Current taste: Toothpaste
> Current emotions: Sleepy
> Current status online: involved/influenced/infatuated...
Serious! it's that! haha!
> Current fav person : ehh...me?
> Current wonder: ??
> Current instrument played: recorder?? can?
> Current need: a hug & a gd massage!

> LAST

> Last good cry: Can't remember
> Last movie seen: Into The Mirror
> Last beverage drank: Green Tea
> Last food consumed: Satay
> Last crush: Can't remember
> Last phone call: ehh...kimmy hung!
> Last tv show watched: some cartoon on nickelodean
> Last time showered: 8pm
> Last shoes worn: my birkenstocks!
> Last cd played: i dun play CD's..either mp3's or the radio!
> Last item bought: lemmi think...not too sure..hah!
> Last annoyance: brother! haha!
> Last disappointment: nothing i think..
> Last ice cream eaten: tiramisu ice cream @ food asia
> Last time wanting to die: ehhh! i wanna live ahhh!
> Last shirt worn: wearing a shirt now..
> Last website visited: friendster.

woohoo! i ate sushi today! great great!
after like starving thru lunch, i
finally had a gd meal....but..wan't that
good la.. had to rush rush cos my stupid
friend wanted to watch a movie.
and the shop was that "into the mirror"
korean show! i was like covering
my eyes like half the show man! aiks!
*typical mun* afraid of everything!!!
hahahah! oh well....
atleast i'm NOT LIKE CHAM HUI!!! hahahah
but i got a lil' freaked when i was to
go home la...cos my block's kinda quiet
and all.... so creepyy...so i got my
bro down to fetch me up!! hahah!
such a gd bro right!! YA RIGHT!!!

know what, the more i see my layout,
the more i love it! wahahah! *glows*
dunch noe why! hehe - love the PINK!
haha!

alright, gotta go zZzzZzZzz - am supposed
to wake up at 815 tmr...*yawn*
nitey nite peepz!

Got this thru the internet! Kinda bored...so here goes!

1:Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page
18, find line 4. Write down what it says:
No Words!! it's actually a MANGO catalogue!
hahaha!

2: Stretch your left arm out as far as you
can...what do you touch??
The Macdonalds bear that has the letter M on it!

3: What is the last thing you watched on TV?
Watching some chinese 7pm show.

4: WITHOUT LOOKING, guess wad time is it?
715pm???

5: Now look at the clock, what time is it?
725pm

6: With the exception of the computer, what can
you hear?
the TV!

7: When did you last step outside? what were you
doing?
eh...haven't even been out of the hse man!

8: Before you came to this website, what did you
look at?
blogger

10: Did you dream last night?
hmmm...don't remember..hehe

11: When did you last laugh?
ermm.... yesterday..haha!

12: What is on the walls of the room you are
in?:
ehh..a puzzle.

13: Seen anything weird lately?:
weird??!!??

14: What do you think of this quiz?:
different i guess.

15: What is the last film you saw?:
lemmi think - ermmm...i remember who i
watched it with though.... lemmi think harder...
ahhh!! starsky and hutch! hahaha


16: If you became a multi-millionaire overnight,
what would you buy first?:
alot of things for my parents and a car so i
can drive them around!!
then....i'll go shopppppping!!!

17: Tell me something about you that I don't
know:
hmmmm.....a deep thinker...

18: If you could change one thing about the
world, regardless of guilt or politics, what
would you do?
Terrorism and racism!!

19: Do you like to dance?:
yeah!! to relieve stress!

20: George Bush:
eh...i know him, he dunno me..

21a: Imagine your first child is a girl, what do
you call her?:
hmmm.... michealla..wahahah! if you
dunno how to pronounce...DON'T! hahah!

21b: Imagine your first child is a boy, what do
you call him?:
ehhh..."hubby, you decide!"!!

22: Would you ever consider living abroad?
sure came across my mind b4...

i find myself distant from my flesh and
blood. now, the line's getting more
and more apparent. i just don't understand
why. i care, but i just can't show.
i find it....funny. *shrugs* it's really sad
to actually realise this is happening to me.
mum's never happy with the distance
i have between me and my relatives.
even my grandma. i wanna show my care,
but it's really hard when i've never
really portrayed it b4. it's sad that i find it
hard to show concern when my mum's
unwell. i want to, just that something's
holding me back.. not sure what though.
i'm just hoping i'll get over this and
show what i really want to...

//make it real or take it all away//

hey!! i've done up my new
blog!!! can you actually see what i'm
writing??? cos this stupid big fat pic has
covered my words man!
and i really dunn how to move
it's big fat ass man! ooohhh!
i'm now like addicted to class 95
man! shessh!! oohhh ohhh, so how
is it??? is my layout pretty?? pretty right!
nice right! hahah! so boring...
spent like half my day @ home....
staring at rectangle thingy - hehe.
face is turning rectangle as well..
well, this is my only off day that
i'm home so long! haha! amazing man!
meeting up with a friend for dinner
later - lucky there's still someone that
remember's me..*LOL* ehh..there's this
place which sells quite nice satay near
my place man! sells thai food as well,
but only certain dishes are nice.
love the beancurd hotplate there!!
*yumyum* it's funny you know, it's just
near the sembawang satay club,
but i dun like the satay club there and prefer
this one! think the satay club's satay
isn't quite nice la huh.....
hmm...it's time for me to get cracking and
plan the schedule for next week....
hmm..when shall i put myself off!?? haha!
dun wanna work alrdy la! tired of it all,
but i just wanna help miss esther man!
well, till i blog again........
chaos!

finally - it's my off day again!!! but oh well, i'm still
doing some paper work here @ home. sending out
some emails for esther, making some calls and doing
up the schedule.... hate doing the schedule when it's
all sucky man! no part timers!!! argh! it's killing me!
watching days of our lives now - but currently showing
some advertisements.

you that new show - eye for a guy...
think it's really...DUH!!!!!! it's something like the bachelorette
with a much smaller budget and lust. as usual, singapore's
trying to keep up with the american shows - but it only goes to show
how much originality they actually have! the shows are so similar
and the worse part is that - they can't even make a better than
the americans! haha! so it's a bad copy man!
kekeke.

im gonna go hunt for some food now....
hungry hungry hungry...

//so tell me how i'm to feel right now//

it's 3am now - after my daily dosage of the encore of
days of our lives. hahaha! hey! class 95 plays great music
at night man! soooo many nice songs - you know, those that
have been left on the racks after all these years. hehe.
always listening to 987fm, so i usually hear all the lastest
music, so gotta switch back in time you know! hahah!
well balance of both eras!! haha! what the hell am i talking
about here man!

esther (the woman incharge of my place), ok, a shareholder
la huh... well, she's carrying so much burden within her
right now and i feel sad, that as her most senior service staff
helping her right now, i can't help her lighten her burden!
alright, i used to think that she was unappreciative and all....
but now i see her in a different angle. like somewhat changed
my perception of her and all. ok well, she can really be arrogant
and ignorant at times...but i guess she's just like that and she may
have her reasons for it. well, she's currently going thru a divorce
with her husband and she isn't taking it well cos her children aren't.
her children mean alot to her and im sure if they are taken away...
it'll be so hurting for her. and she's hardly there for her children
due to the work load and stress down @ secret garden! just
imagine your child calling you to shout @ you saying you'd
rather stay with at your place and spend time with the staff
there and friends rather than be @ home with them.......
i mean it's truely hurting!! and nowadays, she looks really
lifeless man! i bet she cries herself to sleep every night and
ends up not sleeping well and having a migraine. *sigh*
well, even though it's not been long since i've been working
there, but there seems to be this attachment between esther
and us. just looking at her sad, i really feel sad for her having
to cope with all the stress she has to go thru right now, and
seeing her cry and breakdown right in front of me makes me
wanna cry together with her!! hmmm....oh well...maybe it's
just cos i'm an emotional person and i really feel for people in
undesirable situations..... hmm..is that how i'm to phrase it..haha!!
ok..ya..........well, she's now drawing out from being incharge
of the place and it's really very sad to hear so. handing the work
over to paul chua - which is her husband la huh..... well, i really
some sorta hate him to allow esther to end up in this state.....
but oh well....i don't really know the whole story.. so what te heck
right! who am i to judge! now i just hope isn't that difficult
to work with. with all that i've heard about him... he really doesn't
sound like an easy guy boy! heh.

oh well, it's time i tuck myself in man! heh - feeling tired now...
cherios!

damn friendster!!! i can't seem to change my pics!!!!!
error after error after error!!!!
*bish bish bish*

woke up early today..like 10 plus..haha!
funny eh, cos i usually wake up kinda late man!
all cause of those SMS's man! irritated the hell
outta me man! well, it's been weeks and weeks
of work and i really dunno why im staying @ a place
that tires me up totally...cos of the $$?? i dunno.
ok, the pay's good..but im really drained from working man!
wonder how long more of this i can take..
still need to give a month's notice b4 resigning.. *sigh*
alright alright, i need to go take my shower now..
chaoss!

i need toothpicks,
possibly some invisible ones.
i need special droplets,
possibly those that are naturally produced.

i just need em' cause my windows to life
are shutting everday and all the time!

mp3 spinning :: Josh Groban - Confessions

(ok,personally, this song is really nice. go d/l it hwee!)

came back not long ago - watching my fav baby cartoon!! RUGRATS!!!
wooohooooooo!! it's been quite awhile since ive watched it. havent
been able to watch much TV since i've been working. *poor mun*
anyway, went down to indochine today. 2nd time down there - kinda
alright. they have a live band as well and also.... COMFORTABLE couches!!!
HWEEEEEEE!!! you can make ur way down man! i'm sure it'll be good.
and i'll bring you down to new asia when i'm free ok! or you can make
your way down with vincent also. hehe!

well, work has been really really tiring these few days... but i finally am
able to understand how esther feels inside... all the burden that she's carrying
and stuff. well i wish i could help her in some way.... but i don't think i can do
much la huh... i'll just help her in what way i can... *sobs*

ell, i'm really dozingi off soon.... so sleepy right now im almost typing
with my eys closed...so i better like chao! hahah! cherios!